Okie, like wad the rest r doing, i will follow suit. Summary for the year 2005!

Jan - stuck in a little island off coast, praying fervently for each day to pass and yearning for the return to mainland. Its jux the start and i am jux waiting to things to unfold and let nature take its own course.

Feb - STILL stuck in a little island off coast, praying fervently for each day to pass and yearning for the return to mainland. Chinese New Year was a great break for us to replenish our energy, cos the worse was yet to be, i was lucky to be able to survive thru it.

Mar - "A" results are out and my three months of "training" comes to an end, culminating in the first ever parade i have ever participated. Made up my choice of course i wanna take up. Oh yeah not to forget the wonderful pple i met on the island and how that intricate friendship between us were forged.

Apr - Training at a diff. place on mainland, but still is some farny corner of mainland. Learned to operate some interesting vehicles and yeah made more friends and saw even more old friends.

May - Posted to my new, sort of a Perm. unit, had moi first ever exercise like 3 days into the new environment, but it was an excellent experience and i muz say it was quite fun though... hehe, started my "life", meetin up with long-lost peepz and re-establishin contacts... Great to have u guys yeah... Oh yeah got my own ball too.

Jun, Jul, Aug - Nothing realli fantastic, jux work and the usual outings, but i muz comment that outings were awesome and super fun no matter wad, oh ya met the excos too, like wow, after so long. Started reminiscing the past, eagerly wanting to return to sch days where we had realli so much fun while studying. emotional and pissy and PMS-sy ... Oh ya National day @ neighbourhood.. -_-

Sept, Oct - work again, preparation for this exercise that is coming up and gosh its hectic, starting to wonder and get paranoid over the age issue... like Shiacks!.. getting more "brandie" and "spendie", but still TRYin to keep a tab on my finances.

Nov, Dec - Major exercise happening and very busy during the Nov period. On leave period, went KL and Christmas!

Okie... i have accumulated a whole butt of things to blog, so hang in there!

oh yeah, went KL for an intended super shoppin spree. But it was disappointing, since i tot there would be cheaper stuff there for sale on top of the high exchange rate. If u ever visit KL, dun go into those huge metropolitian shopping centre that looked as if it would be expensive to shop inside, cos IT IS expensive to shop inside. HAHA. Nonetheless, i still did some shoppin, jux keepin a tab on how much is being spent yeah.

It was den, me leave period, which was FILLED with activities okie... met my excos after some time to like meet up and catch up. It was extremely fun and we realli chat and talk and discuss abt everything under the sun from the love philsophy to the meaning of life to lots of other stuff... den we had steamboat and most of the pple ganged up on huiyian... poor gurl haha... den there was so much food and stuff that we had to play the improved version of zhong ji mi ma where the one who got the number correct will not be forfeited to eat something from the steam boat, but those two beside the one will have to eat soemthing... haha so yeah it was everyone's game. We had fondue with semi-hardened nutty chocolate and fresh juicy fruits. It was delectable and simply heavenly yes! den played a new game psychiatrist and started our discussion. Took a lot of photos at the end and tried many positions and poses and formations, realli cool and the effects are simply GREAT! missin ya guys alreadi... hope that we realli have another time to meet up yeah. take carez in the mean time.

Visited SC and joyce with SF and aloy at their workplace and i am truely fasinated by the cashier register machine, realli fun to play with haha. After that went SF house for MJ session, and we concluded that SF hse is an awesome place to enjoy... bungalow leh, how can u not enjoy? and all the high tech stuff and many many more... simply an outrageouly huge place to play and chill! went for a mini shoppin and bought some stuff b4 going home.

Was supposed to be on leave on the 22nd, but hafta go back to camp to do some stuff, den after that went to watch KING KONG after going home to pai pai. KING KONG is a little bit draggy but its like it depics a love that transcend thru inter-species relations, even animals without an advance knowledge but armed with primitive emotions and instinct has the ability to give love and reciprocate wads been taken. Its jux that pure, and it is jux that realm of fantasy where perfectionism sets in and nuthin is being injected with "socio-ism", which starts to affect pple and that is where pornograhy evolves from and rapist and all the cons of the society emerges. Watching KING KONG makes me realise how much the world is containing within its boundaries.

Christmas!!! a season to give and take recieved some cards and pressie... THANKX to all, yupz and MerRie christmas.

WhEW!

First things first, there wasn't much updating for the past 2 wks cos i was on exercise (not the literal one, but militarily-wise). It was mentally tiring more than physical exhaustion, but objectively speaking, it was still a great experience, trying to learn things along the way, sort of like self-benefiting. It was realli taxing on my financial budget too, considering all the transport fees i have to spend, but oh well its over. Okie, shan't go too much in depth, jux in case i am infringing upon sensitive security issues.

Christmas is so much around the corner, festivity is not as strong as the past few years, mabbe its becos i havent realli got in touch with the feel of christmas that is ballooning outside. Yeah i shld get out there, and get my christmas shopping on the ball rolling, although i am still brainstorming abt the pressies i shld get. Hmmmz...

Oh ya, OLD NEWS! i watched Harry Potter le, wanna give some reviews on it since its my fav show. I had much anticipation for the show after reading the book in detail, expected all the gargantuan effects, bombastic plots and mystical magical stuff, but it didnt meet my expectations in the end. Much of the show were modified and cut short, but its forgivable, taking into account the budget and the show time. I wanted more magic and fantastic stunts, but there was basically the bare minimum, oh well, thumbs up for beauxbatons and drumstrang added much spice into the show which i like, and boos to dumbledore for being such an irritable git, realli miss the old dumbledore, so temperless and kind, encouraging and supportive, calm and composed. Hermoine is going too much into showing emotions which is BAD, her beauty sort of nullify that over-emoitonal effects. Yupz.

OkiE! Before Boo comes back, i would like to extend a warm welcome to him! WELCOME BACK! bet three gruelling weeks in the outback muz have struck some yonkers into u. Wadeva, good to have ya back.

The past few days were realli taxing, i seriously cant believe how much stuff i moved up into an elevated transport of at least 2m tall, objects which may amount to hundreds of kilogrammes... and things like white boards that hafta be tilted at this precise angle and yada yada. Basically its jux tough manual work, not to mention after moving stuffs, we hafta set up stuffs too... not jux easie normal set ups, much more complicated ones. I almost succumbed to the exhaustion overwhelming me, showing signs of emotional stress and nervours crumble, signalling the unwillingness and the reluctance to expend anymore energy to do work. When i got home, i was absolutely drained, dried up of all expendable energy. Even longer hours of sleep cant replenish my over-loaded body. Else, positivity kept me going and gave me the strength to get this entry in.. haha

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*Quick Flash!* Last week was hectic as usual. Work! wat else can it be other than hectic and being busy, its the norm. A Horrenduously important exercise (not literally), is creeping round the corner and preparations are up on my heels. Once this is over, it would prob be a better term ahead.

I am soooooo TempTED!!!! I seriously wanna watch my Harry Potter - Goblet of Fire, but for the sake of *erm-hem* hafta endure and wrench in agony as i try to shun away from pple whom had watched the movie... ARGH!... wadeva... anyway watched the Harry Potter - Chamber of Secrets on TV and erm kinda relieve a bit of agony in me... I am so touched at the end when EVERYONE except the malfoy gang clapped for hagrid and applaued those un-petrified in celebration of everything good that triumphs over evil!

The Holidays are approaching, finances are on tight budget to tide thru this holiday season. I absolutely lurveeee the holidays. Such a festivity, such fun!

Friday... Hmmmz well it was a bunjeeeeeeee jumping experience for me. I totally experienced o a varied spectrum of emotions, from total depression, disconsolate, despondent, woebegone blah blah in the morning to somewhat a little more cheerful, a little more tinge of joy in the afternoon, to in the end normality. Haha, i feel so inpredictable. Wadeva the case, i have finally tide thru the phase and kinda like zhen zhuo qi lai le. In retrospect, i feel justified for all that i felt cos i think its fully alrite for me to get pissed and slowyl evolving into such spectra of emotions. During that period, i kinda like told myself to dispel this negativity and embrace wad happiness can bring, but somehow it was so intense that i was paralysed by it.

My tots ran wild and i cam up with this.

Yourself...

In this world of more than half a dozen of billions of people, its so congested that physically u r never alone. Loneliness occur when people feel spiritually, emotionally and mentally empty, but come to think of it, u can never be alone even in those intangible cases. There is always yourself accompaning you. Have you ever wonder y is there you and yourself? Its obvious that you and yourself are the embodiment of the final you, closely knitted and intertwined. When you are fellin sad, "yourself" will be feelin the exact same thing as u, likewise, when "yourself" is feelin down, you feel the same too. In fact, by feelin sad and down, you are torturing you and yourself, which ultimately inflicts double the agony upon ur final embodiment. Wads the point anyway? On the contrary, happiness and also be doubled when you experience joy, elation and everything plesant. Isnt that better than agony? I was thinkin so in depth abt this matter that i kinda communicated with myself (in you its "yourself"), and came to a compromise of trying to feel less agony and attempt to be happy. So this is a formula for you and yourself. ")

Enuf of philosophies, went to catch jux like heaven with yk and chan, it was the usual romance comedy, which i personally think its cliche, but never boring. Its always the same thing plot, but never, never repetitive. At least i can feel some uniqueness abt the film and i am quite please with it. But can there ever be a movie without evil villians or baddies? or izzit essential for this perpectuating duality to be present in these movies so as to make movies work out? One way or another, i guess that is right. Oh well, i might jux as well think of a story plot w/o that ba...

After the movies, went to this esprit outlet at NP and the merchandise there were going at very reasonable prices... bought a shirt, while chan laments over the fact that he is too skinny for any clothes there to fit him (LOL). Returned home with yk and chen to my house for dinner and watched sky high, courtesy of yk and ck. Again, the usual superhero show which i think its a bit corny.

Yupz... shall end here with a quote by the erm.. Me and myself.

"The joy of one, defines the happiness of both.
The sun shines on one, dictates the growth of both."

Its always hard to start off a blog entry aint it?... haha oh well, anyway last week was basically hols and rests and nuthing else much but lots of free time... weekends were more happening... Went to chan's recommendation - the eski-bar, and it was fabulous... the whole concept of "sub-zero"ness and the realli creative concoction they serve there kinda make them a one of a kind pub. I like the names of the drinks they serve, things like "sleeping polar bear" brings out that artic feel and yupz kinda brings u to a different dimension and vacuums out most of the fan naos u had. There is this sub-zero zone there which apparently is of temperatures below 0 degrees and its realli frosting and freezing haha but i like tt feelin and atmosphere.

Went out on sat for some quaterly shoppin and went to orchard to support friends at the subaru( i think its spelt this way) challenge and gosh i didnt realli expect so many pple to be there participating and supporting, but it was an excellent eye-opener... had dinner at this kublai khan buffet restaurant... wasnt that fantastic but it was normally good ba... yeah...

I muz say that the whole of last week was prob the most enriching week i ever had. Apparently many of life's true agenda came upon me as i uncover the mystics of of my presence or should i say everyone's presence in this green globe.

Life aint no easie-peasie thingy that u can play with. There are motives and goals to set our sights to, and everything happens for a reason and everyone appears for a reason. To attain our goals, some people stoop down to the most dispicable methods, hurting and causing emotional stress to others, while some other people earn their way to the top thru sheer determination and extraordinary strength, which is adored by others. I was enlightened on the fact that there are the selfish, self-interest maniac around that are those stooping to down-right dirty methods, who wouldn't even flinch at the cost of sacrificing other people's erm... EVERYTHING. Back-stabbing, bad-mouthing, things that make u feel terrible will befall on u if u r not careful of whom u mix with. Its the same old cliche "the society is a very complicated network of traps" thingy that is constantly drilled into me, of which i kinda ignore without much attention. However, till recently have i only got to realise the very essence of this cliche and kinda paid more attention to it.
When things don't go smoothly or as plan, or when events happen that pisses u off, endure... for the rainbow after the rain. Keep the positive thinking up and dispel all negativity. For only this will you be able to keep yourself happie and contented, satisfied and enlightened.

All right, on a lighter note, i have been training and training had paid off with results that i am quite contented with. I am esp. happie to see improvements thru my own hardwork. YEAh!
Oh ya... watched wedding planner and i am totally blown away by all the intricate colours complemented beautifully by distinctive contours, all the natural settings that are so beautiful and serene. I love those silverware used for dining and the different themes and costumes and music. It is so perfect, such an ideal professionalism that i aspire to possess. That is a far-away dream that never seem to be able to realise... unless I believe...

It has been a week, walking down memory lane, reminising the past while feeling loads of emotions. Saw my old table filled with notes and assignments and my stationaries laying forlornly all over the place. I so wanna go back to school again. I wouldn't complain of the load of HW there is and no more grumbling of how much i have to do le!!! Pls jux lemme go back to sch and study once again.

Read thru lots of blogs today, while waiting for my student to complete his test. It kinda saddens me and realli made me feel this intrinsic inevitability that the past had passed. It is so real, yet i don't wan it to happen. I love my sch days, and i have this extreme urge to go back to such days where the whole sch does something together. Saw NJC the open house on the bus and the net, and it makes me realli wanna go back and help no matter how tiring it would be. It is so like when i helped paint banners, do performance, and set up places, i do it without any grudges and i kinda enjoy it. Fun and laughter never ceases and satisfaction with extreme gratification follows. I am proud of my sch and ever will and i miss the times in sch studying and rushing abt. HAHA...

Its like now that we dont meet every now and den, which makes me misses u all sooooo much. It ain't like back in sch where we can jux meet up and chit chat, laugh and interact with each other... i love it!

It has been quite some time and i should clean this place up of its stagnancy, jux in case mosquitoes start breeding here. Aha, besides the the lamie-startie, its time to break some ice.

One great WOO-HA i would like to brag is that i actually got to come into contact with RONG-SHAO aka desmond koh aka xu zhen rong, ain't it cool? i kinda like helped him tackle some stuff for him, and i got his email and hp number... aWeSOme! and he made an impression on me of being a super convivial celebrity. There had been a few busy weeks and lots of things to do, but they have passed and now its more of a lot more work to be done. Its starting to be like the real world, where professionals and graduate work for survivial, but it is not that competitive, or shld i say not even the least competitive, but the same concept of survivial applies here nonetheless.

Being Linguistically fluent and having the ability to utilise it well doesn't necessarily mean that i have to do everything. Its the wrong perception of indolent people, who wishes to languorously sit ard all day and "TUANG" (a common army lingo which means slacking). Watever it is, i am glad that i am able to resist the negativities and phase out the critics. I realised i actually have grown in many ways ever since the day i got enlisted. I have learnt to realli give and take, take things that come in your stride, and when things dont happen to you, you cant force it to happen, u jux have to accept and acknowledge, only then will it come great wisdom.Also, when u don't get what other pple possess, dont dwell upon the fact that u dont have, think abt things that u have that others don't. It may be twindling towards self-centeredness, but it is a good counteractive forces towards the metamorphical GREEN. I am an emotional person, feelin tons of fluctuations every now and den... but i have learn to gain more control over it, and this enables me to be more calm and work with sophistication, it also pumps me up with power and strength to meet challenges and guide me as an intuition.

Many things are happening and accepting them is jux difficult, realising i am 19 this yr and 20 next yr isn't an optimistic out view, considering i am approaching an age that is starting with the digit 2. ArgH... time do flY!!!

A great week i muz say... at least i am feeling lethargic and for once i could feel my muscles exercised! haha... went to some warehouse sale and yupz... as expectedly expected... all within the sgporean concept of KIASU... lol

Hmmm... got lotsa things to debate about... but i dunno where to start from...

classics are still classy...

Awesome!.. i am so proud of myself.. YeAh.. i have so looked out of the box and convinced myself to love myself more... do justice to the great ME!... haha

seriously... i kinda like take things on a lighter note... although its on constant reminder... but at least results are showing... positivity is seeping in and bitterness is OUT!

Hmm... kinda into wine tasting and appreciation... sophistication huh... yeah its HIGH-CLASS alrite... gonna go into fine dining and etiquetti... that is so cool..

everything is going on real fine... its cool... taking things realli in my stride... like cool... not getting so edgy and affected... like yeah... taking things as it is... and looking at things from a totally different prospective... things jux seem brighter ye know... haha

sometimes life ain't only me, me and me... its also with him, her, them... everybody around u... its only reasonable to associate and integrate everybody into your own matrix and conjure a set of ruling to set a pace and standard... that is basically LIFE! yeah and i do mean BASICALLY.. haha

Hmm... yest was a wonderful day... went down to the OP warehouse sale which was APPALLING, it was exactly like a pasa malam (night market), it was as if everyone was in consternation, trenching thru the piles of apparels that obviously had gone thru a "battle".

okie... abit late though but yeah... happie burthdae to singapore... its like having this huge celebration with pple that we dont realli know kinda nice though... but i like the songs the extravagance and the "holiday" mood. This could have been a lot better if there is some break-through from the mundane routine of "act 1, act 2 and act 3" could have been more spontaneous or even con-current for a change as a matter of fact. But it is like once in 5 yrs, that it is held in padang and i kinda like the idea of having the celebration brought around singapore into the heartland.

Subsequently, things turned towards a positive side of life... Its like so sudden that my accentuating depressing tots regresses into more positive and enlightening prespects. Given my current situation, i am trying to move towards a vivacious character, giving life a better and brighter meaning.

Guess that emotions are good training devices to build up character and personality. *It is only thru the storm that a navigator can truely find his directions.*

For now, i am taking things easy, helping people whenever i could, lending a helping hand, propagating a more extensive network of people. Hopefully, that will put me in good stead when i enter into the society.

Oh yeah... not to mention the constant build up of sophistication and knowledge thru self-learning, which i recently implemented upon myself to realli make good use of time when i have spare.

And seriously, i realli need my monthly dosage of retail therapy and more reality TV shows... GOSH... cant wait for the next epi of The America's Next Top Model... prob even The Apprentice... hehe... guess i am realli transforming into a TV junkie and i gotta finish my harry potter... anticipation as the story unfolds...

Apparently, i seemed detached from civil society and prob even from humanity. I wonder if i still can relate to people... do the people-to-people thingy. Its still fresh in my memory that i like to help pple all ard me... like helping friends opening up, shring their thots and worries, helping people realise potentials that slumbers within them (think on the surface, cos i am not ghandi nor thereasa). Gosh... i am totally sensitive to even the smallest things... and i realli have this 错败感 that is clinging on to me like some parasite. I have no reason to blame IT but it is still partly due to my wadeva is it that is causing it that caused it... yeah wadeva

Everyday, as i traipsed towards the metallic facade of an intimidating enclosure, i am always overwhelmed by a mixture of emotions. It is always battling within me to determine who is the ultimate victor - the urge to complete my responsibilities and return to my abode, or to really spend quality time within my responsibilities to learn and enjoy the company of friends. As i passed the security check point, flashing my identity card to certify my presence, it would usually lead me on down the meandering path towards my shabby work ground. It is usually a twist of fate and the works of the grandfather clock to determine whether i walk or enjoy the journey in the comfort of the bus.
Upon arrival, its always the cliched regimental regimes and rules to adhere to, which completes a routinal morning schedule bridging towards the start of work. Usually, after a simple ceremonial presence-indicating session, it would be heads back to the office for all of us, where a multitude of work awaits. Everyday, there is a ever-changing course of tasks for everyone to perform, giving their level best to satisfy the minimum criteria to at least secure themselves a safe environment. As for me, its always vacilating between being the good old me, or the baddy me (not criminally, or evil, or sinisterly bad. Just the rather unapproachable me), as work doesn't realli pressurizes me a lot, but rather the inter-personnel agenda that is.

the chronicle continues...

Had some insights on some matters of sophistication and social status... and i would like to highlite a point of enunciation of the word 'A' and not otherwise...

Gosh... i jux came to realise that i am plan stupid... i am totally being hurt incessantly, bleeding profusely and cowering melancholy alone... and who is the perpetrator?... that would be the idiosyncratic... Me! of cos it takes two hands to clap... so yea there is another party... haiz... but i have awoken (i think)... hoping fervently for time to heal my wounds... is there medication to lighten my pain? is there a doctor to treat my condition? is there anyone out there?

Hmm.. nuthing much realli... jux mundane normal life, which is in serious need of spices!! lol... sound as if i dont have a life... but i have a partial one, which is in the process of obliteration... gotta find a source of power strong enuf to pull thru this..

was pondering upon many issues which dawned on me when i was rather free... yeah free... which equals to lots of time to day dream... The balance of this world is actually maintained by this perpectuating duality that exist independently as a counteracting phenomenum.. there is always peopl being happy :) and others being sad :( ... there is the matter of life and death... there is the endless battle betweem good and evil... so many to name... have u ever wondered that when u r actualli enjoying and sharing happiness with someone else... there is another party that i feelin left out and feelin sad?.. when there is a baby born somewhere... there is also a deceased somewhere else... that is the hurtful truth but an inevitable one... wow sounds philosophical but yeah.. its jux me plain rattling away... expressing my view... but it makes sense though... hehe haha... okie dokie... miss u all out there and hope to see ya soonz...

Yeap!!... its a half day today for most of my fellow office-mateys and friends (cos i refuse to regard them as collegues)... while i have to attend my medical appt @ TTSH... so i made my way there at around 12+ stopping by bishan to do some shopping and finally arriving at almost 2... wonderful and i tot the clinic would serve on a first come first serve basis and i cld get everything over and done with ignoring the fact that my appt is at 350pm... however... time seems to literally CRAWL... or even wriggle like some worm without any legs at ALL... i totally waited for like easily 2hrs b4 its my turn to see the doc... like damn it... i have exhausted all ways and means to keep myself occupied and optimistic that i can return to my abode early... but the call for my turn finally at around 4, dashed all hopes. Wats worse was that i was jux plainly flustered that i kept fumbling upon stuffs. The whole situation reached its pinnacle of embarassement when i walked into the room with one resident doc and 2 interns... firstly i was like carrying so much stuff on my hand that i kinda like dragged everything into the room and sprawl them all over the floor... when i wanted to like stack them neatly into one corner... the doc demanded me to sit over to the other side leaving all my stuff laying forlornly on the floor... wats worse is the my whole bag went under the doc's desk and i kinda like groped his legs while i felt for my bag *god! that is juz so embarassing*.. and that 2 interns seem to be enjoying themselves... watching my fumble... YICKS!

It was more or less the same case when i was in the MRT too... cos i mistaken the approaching train to be my train and i kinda rushed down looking terribly misplaced and disposed of all image only to find out that i made a mistake... lucky for me its finally the journey home where i can juz simply throw everything in one corner... yupz *which i literally did*

Baked 2 cheesecakes.. one for friends and the other for family... cooking is still a good way to de-stress even though its hardwork... hehe... did some reading and missed CSI *yucks* but it was for a good cause... as i was watching CHARMED... hehe

anyway recently there has been a great hoo-ha abt the talent search show on TV, leeching off viewers' attention in order to crown the next promising super star... and pple have been commenting greatly on this event and i shld do mine...
Firstly : IT SUX TOTALLY... its juz another gimmick to be one-time famous
Secondly: IT STILL SUCK... the participants there are jux visual prostitutes for viewers to rape
them optically... leaving mangled flesh and tattered image... GRUESOME!!!

Its jux another day... thats all i can lament about... nuthin special or especially exciting.. the only thing i can presumably conclude is that "arrows" around the office are getting much more aggressive...

trying to improve myself with new knowledge and information... think i am realli on into it... prob getting to enroll myself in some class or another...

okie... firstly i muz apologize to the excos... so sorrie.. i had something on that i so last minute... yupz sorrie.. absolutely apologetic!

Watched War of the Worlds already and it was totally awesome... like absolutely great... but it was a bit disappointing at the end... everything was so perfect... the plot, the develoment... it kept me on the edge of my seat (literally)... i grabbed on to everything.. i mean its so in suspense that i was kinda like on tenderhooks... haha but it was a great movie... and spielberg is jux damn awesome... he reflected the selfish aspect of man-kind... the i-would-kill-u-to-save-my-skin kinda philsophy in mankind... the basic need/instinct to survive will supercede all social concerns and the so-called norms which evidently are the dwindling ethics that is left... there was plot and visual effects... so its 4 popcorns out of 5... the deduction was due to the abrupt ending to which how the aliens died and how reunion happened... it was lame so to speak, cos its like thruout the show the aliens were to perfect to be defeated... but in the end they were defeated by the very essence that made us.. its like too sudden... but still it is excellent!!

went to another movie today which was Initial D, i was quite skeptical abt that show at first cos i tot it would be some himbo show flauting all the hot idols that participated in the show... it turned out otherwise... its unlike amercan movies... its style is very asian... but at least it is captivating.. all the cool maneuvers and speed lashing bends... all the action, the danger... it was awesome... definitely nice... however there seem to be some parts that are irrelevant... like some narcissistic freak trying to be farny but turned the effects to be otherwise... and the girl who is supposedly to be jay's gf turned out to be some explicit social escort... its like *diaoz* lamo!!! but at least it is not cliched.. that's a saving grace!

Oh ya... went back to cat high for homecoming... it is totally GREAT!!!.. i mean all the memories and everything rushed back and it was absolutely overwhelmed... somethings changed and definitely a lot of improvements... i loved the sch and will still love it... its my ala mater... and all the students and teachers that i know... my god.. i realli loved that feeling and enjoyed myself there... OVERWHELMED!... like WOW!!! i am so gonna wan to teach there... haha relief teaching... yupz!

Gee... its like a wild morning today with everything running amuck, my hair, my clothes, chicken meat and even emotions... guess i can't handle so much things at a time... or prob i need a distraction from all these diversifications of problems and YUCKS! i hate that...

got ready for some parade for some day... i was quite reluctant to attend but apparently i ahve no choice unless i am on duty which i am not! The parade was quite short with a menagerie of berets displayed under the warm sunlight. It was alrite and we kinda left quite early after that... now i am back in my comfy office with the air-con blasting right at my face... *whew*...

Fingers crossed now... jux hope that i can get a half day off today from my superiors!!!

had a dinner treat from my superior today at sakae... it was more of like a farewell dinner for shaun and moses... and btw... good luck to both of you and take care... will be missin u lots!

went GIANT to grab some BBQ stuff.. den went home...

Hmmm... had realli tot abt a lot of things and juz got saddened by events that happened and passed by along the way... i mean i know that i am easily affected but... i have realli tried for the past week to suppress everything under a peaceful act... i dont feel good...esp after losing another two more gd friend from my office... its juz like sch where we have to part... but leaving is always so hard... now it seems like i am all alone.. its hard...

It was a good time for all of us i think, to sit down and laugh about silly stuff and recount all the outrageous things that happened back in school. i feel sad that that is now a closed chapter of my life, and that this period of time shared with this group of people has been subconsciously relegated to being fragments of the past as i go about mapping out my future. looking ahead, it is sad to think that the path ahead may or may not cross these people's as much as i would like, but i guess i can take comfort in precious memories of the past

Gee.. its early in the morning and i got nothing to do... stayed in for the past two days and it had been quite an experience... i mean its like taking me to the zoo for the first time and let my imagination and fantasy of the place run wild... i had expectations and my prerogative of imagination but some turned out to be boogy while others turned out to be something quite expected... but overall its like a 7 stars out of 10... but i wld think twice b4 staying in again... its like realli troublesome to get food and cumbersome to get all my stuff in... imagine dragging half ur closet to camp.. wonderful? i think not... but some might think of it as some make over of ur own wardrobe *disgusting will it be*...

okie den.. its like wednesday and its charrrrrmed day... its jux so exciting and anticipating to realli get to watch the serial... i am so addicted... anyway shall end my morning yawn here and cya soonz...

To all.. have a good morning and take care..

*Is giving up the little quirks and eccentricities in exchange for normality a good thing? Is it absolutely necessary to lose certain parts of ourselves in order to grow?* think abt it??

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okie... went out with sf sc wk yk chan and boo... walking around jux enjoyin each other's company... people might regard this as something u would do if u hadn't got anything better to do... but i think otherwise... who cares wat other people think...

wat a good "who cares wat other people think" ... its something that i think i have semi-grasped it... was feelin a sense of pure and innocent happiness yesterday... i don't know how or why... but its like true la... i felt it... and it was like i am on wings... floating off the ground... levitating around... that pure essence of joy... INCREDIBLE!!! and i kinda broke away from the cacoon as a happier and a more colourful caterpillar??? yes indeed.. cos i know i haven't fully mature to a dazzling butterfyl... yupz... waiting for the time to arrive... and till den... i still am trying to grow...

PH!!! yes i realli need to get a hair cut... but i am sooo afraid that the barber will screw up my hairstlye and cause mayhem upon my silky top... and maybe tan myself up a bit... chocolate looks nice... hehe... i need the sun!!!


A thing of beauty is a joy forever;
Its loveliness increases; it will never
Pass into nothingness; but still will keep
A bower quie for us, and a sleep
Full of sweet dreams, and health, and quiet breathing.

ok... its lunch time and whew i had a filling lunch so relaxing a bit b4 working hard again... listening to canon in d by VBC (vienna boys choir)... absolutely soothing and serene... Hmmm still contemplating on taking a half day off tmr...

had lunch with boo plus reminiscing our sec sch days... feelin nostalgic... realli loved those days in sch... carefree and i juz miss them and everybody... like i can find so many pple to hang out with and everyone is under one roof... not even modern technology can beat that.

Trying real hard to conform to the resolutions i set.. *fingers crossed* and hope that i wont be regarded as an idiosyncratic numskull... prob wierd but it is worth a try... hmmm... feelin grateful to the com for providing me an avenue to express myself and my tots... ok... shall stop my whining here and for now... looking forward to charmed tonite and meeting up with friends... yupz!!

Ok... another day at work... feels kinda like some office job kinda thingy... office boy... hehe but i like it... i do have some sense of achievement... esp after photocopying like thousands of sheets of documents... hehe

feelin kinda moody today... i realli dont know but somehow, someway... i muz pull myself together... forget about everything... not literally EVERYTHING... as in things that i am clinging too much on... prob i am juz too sensitive... or izzit another phase in my life... the realli obnoxious NS life... its like i am kinda trapped in this cacoon... i know what i should and shouldn't do... i know the right and wrong way of life... but i am juz too confused and blinded by "things" (can't come up with a better substitution for this)... my "rampaging emotions" so-to-speak... haizz... and its hard for me to break away from all these jiggidies and metamorphasize... its kinda wierd that i kept telling myself to clear every unhappiness from myself and stay happy... but i realli get affected BIG TIME by things that happen around me... even nitty grittyies that i percieve as a priority. How dumb... but i made like that so i shall juz have to deal with it... yupz... its realli true though... was talking to ting and yupz... guess she was rite... i am still growing up and i shld take things in my stride , letting it pass by and go... learning lessons on the way.... Matters of the heart realli make or break u... learnt this lesson b4 and done it twice... or in fact a lot of times le... still fallin into the same trap... haiz... WAKE UP LE!!!!

Felt very sorrie for royston too... he got such a realli lousy vocation and posting... i mean although it is not mine or anything.. i could easily sit aside and laugh my head of his agony and shiong-ness... but i couldn't do that to a realli gd friend like him... i mean it is not a rule or some bonds that say i cant do that... but it is from deep down inside me that i realli empathize him and feel his agony and distraugh on his behalf... it is that BAD!.... emotions and hormones running amuck? i dont think so.. it is juz my nature... good luck chan! and hope all goes well for ya...

Whooo... had a realli busy day today at work... had to do up a place for some briefing. It wouldn't be that bad if there are more manpower and resources to go around... but everyone is being spread very thinly and resources are limited... haha sounds geographic... anyway after that met boo and went back together... haha.. its juz nice to have a realli good friend in camp... even though we're a road away... (literally)

oh ya.. and so sorrie to chan, yk, wk, sc, sf... pai seh can't join u all... went bowling and it was terrible... can't find the feel... and i injured myself... LOL... but its ok le... juz blisters...

In anycase... it was an emotional roller coaster for me today... at work and at the bus-stop... it was like tt ... saw 2 visually-handicapped people (it isn't realli appropriate and nice to address them as blin*) supporting each other while they walk towards their destination... den they stopped to ask passer-bys the location of the bus that they needed to take... somehow i realli feel the helplessness of these people... although much attention had been attached to them ( like the metals dots sprawling all over the floor in some orderly fashion and prob some coding?), it is still ungratifying to see helplessness in them... it realli makes me wonder how fortunate i am... but still i am bugged down by so many things... making a comparison btw them and me... i see that their only apparent worry... is that their handicap will hinder their daily routines and prob affect their life... it may seem major but it is a reasonable worry... for me... i would say that i have too many unduly worries that pesters me causing all these emotional "rock and roll"s... farny but true how human never get satisated... prob this wld cause my greatest downfall... oh wait.. i think it had already... haiz... but it doesn't seem to serve as a lesson learnt.. neither is it a history to rmb... alritey den... enuf of lamenting..

Hmmm... went to watch madagascar... cool and cute animated movie... very funny and relaxing... even though i had a splitting headache that day... realli loved the penguins... farny and cute... i think i am gonna get beanies of them... lol..alex is kinda cute too... but i think gloria ain't no gracious hippo... more like a busty bomb that would squeeze the daylights out of u if u ever piss her off... lol... oh ya.. the racoons (supposedly) are realli hilarious... and i realli love 'em...

hmmm become more of a movie junkie recently... but i like it... lol... but shld restrict it to only once a week... of twice la... dun too much if not it would be too taxing on my monetary account... haha... in any case is still very fun to watch movies with friends.. lol... yupz...

and friday... went back to NJ... nice feelin going back... attended interact club's AGM and got to meet fellow excos and seniors and juniors... realli missed them... and it realli felt great... realli great to juz mingle ard with them... thankx guys...

Have been going out these few days... and yupz... had fun of cos... watched star wars and i think it is quite star warsy.... lol... i mean is the normal star war kinda animations and scenario u wld expect and the plot isn't realli there... it is more of like an action-pack movie... yupz... and i think master yoda is so cute... small, cute... but deadly... haha... den after that went to play pool and bowling wit XQ LM aloy and boo... fun fun... den they came me house for contract bridge session which is by demand from LM... but is quite fun la... basically like dat lor... lol

LalaLA... jux wanna post an entry here... anyway me got posted to a new unit le... not quite sure wats going on yet... trying my best to adapt to everything... argh... many things happened and juz dunno wheere to start... ok den... so take care everybodie... and good luck...

wonderful day it is today... met up with the clique and watched The Interpreter... Cool movie and Nicole Kidman is realli COOL... she is very chio for a women her age... and she does have the X-factor that connects her with the audience...

Ok den ... went for dinner and do wat we usually do... sit down and chat and indulge in the company we have... i am juz so lucky to have u guys as my close friends... juz feel realli glad and yupz... thankx to u all!!

ok... a little note... things have been juz fine for me... nuthing fantastic nor out of the blue... nothing that can blast me off my seat as yet...

It seems that everybody have been buzy with their own new-found lives... and i dare say NS has been a test and obstacle for everybody... a test of friendship and relationships... In any case, i don't think i have been faring well in this test... but mabbe this will serve as an alarm to "wake up my idea" ( an NS slang)... haha so yupz... signing off here...

ok... another coveted update here...

juz completed a three week armour vehicle operator course... i muz say it had been an excellent experience learning something that is rather extraordinary to most pple... and the funnie thing is i actually enjoyed the course other than the usual regimental stuff and 'tekaning'

Initially i tot it wld be flooded wif pple of diploma educational stnds to be at the course since they usually have the technical skills and are skilled in practicality... but on the contrary... it is the theoretical pple dominating the course ( The JC peepz)... esp pple from the top 5 jc.. but anyway... i made quite good friends with some pple there... mainly from rj and hc... found that they are realli funnie fellas...

In anycase i think the course is kinda successful and i got quite a lot of nice experience over there...

Anyway watched two movies these weeks... actually one cos i watched the same movie twice... Its the pacifier... haha... I think its rather heart-warming and closer to the heart... and i like this kinda show... haha

ok den... went out with sc sf boo hc yk wd and chan to have lunch and talk talk a bit... den later walked ard... seriously... it think i have some shopping to do... den later, went to meet up with my 34th exco... realli haben seen them for a long time... and i'm gald that they are all well and doing juz fine... haha... took some photos and caught up a bit... den went home le...

Ok.. this might come a bit late... but i POPed le... haha now as a PTE i can keep my hair... lame but the sad life of a NS men can never be lamer... haha

a brief summary of my last week... went to both NUS and NTU open house and decided upon the course i wanna take... den went on a holiday with my family overseas... got my posting to some armour camp in lim chu kang... that is fate and that i have to accept... juz hope that i can pass these two yrs realli smoothly and hope to chong shi myself and not waste any time...

And seriously... trying to maintain contact wif many pple... but time doesn't allow... but rest assure... me will definitely meet up with u guys...

JUDY!!!... u owe me a meal... and when we meet better get meihui ar... debbie ar... stephanie ar... and all the CFPS peepz together...

still got lots of pple i wanna like juz meet up for a meal and plainly talk over with... that will be cool!!!

And to all... take care and rmb FORGET ME NOT!!! haha

Ok... haben been here for a very long time... indeed i have been very busy since NS... now better le... Think NS is realli a good experience... i got to fire a real rifle during my 3 days of range... get to get close to nature... shit and urine in the wild... sleeping under the starry sky and eating combat rations... learning the battle stuff and getting to know pple more... kinda cool but realli tiring... den on the last day did leopard crawl which is ultra tiring...

next was the live grenade throw... Super cool... like once in a lifetime kinda thing and the effect ROX!! the whole ground shaking and the visual effect is totally cool... esp when the grenade doesn't go off and the use C4 to blow it up... the effect is even more cool and WOW!

den it was the chinese new year break le... yeah my fav festival.. and i realli like put a lot of effort in preparing for it and i am realli juz plainly happy to like spend festivals with fam and friends esp when u r in NS now...

Hmm.. actually NS not that bad yet... cos u learn new things and practice stuff u will never get to learn in ur life... and u get to meet pple from all walks of life and of diff bckgrnds and status and character... and u learn to treasure the freedom u have now when u book out...

ok den.. at this point... i would like to wish everyone a very happie new year and hope that it would be a better year and good health and luck to everyone... once again... HAPPIE NEW YEAR

Yeah!.. today is the new year... a brand new year for me to live thru and enjoy... though this yr would be my NS year... I wish that my family will be healthy and earn lots of money... my 'A' level results will be fantastically good and my sis's 'O' level results will be better than mine... and hope my siblings will do well and cope well with their studies... my friends to have a great year ahead... and wishing good health and best wishes to everybody!...

For me?.. i hope that i can get thru NS smoothly w/o much tekening... and yupz
to all out there... HAPPIE NEW YEAR

almost the new year le... so counting down at my new house...

yeah... i survived the 2 wks of confinement... now i am a free person... yeah!... wanna say that my preception of army life in the past is totally differnt now... cos there isn't tekaning as yet.. and the welfare is realli good... somemore there is quite a few breaks here and there and more time to slack... however the pt is still kinda tough...

I learnt quite a lot of stuff like boot tying, smart 4 sleeves, FBO and SBO and stand by bed/area/universe... and lots of foot drills and commands... luckily i got a bunch of realli nice bunk mates and often talk cock together and laugh... haha... but most of the time, vulgarities are still quite rampent and u gotta take it in ur stride and not get pissed or even cry..

these 2 wks is the most kong bu wk... but luckily i survived it and for the coming wks, i can book out on sat and bk in on sun... and i will be drawing my M16 next wk?? that will be cool... but there is still heavy responsiblilty for getting a rifle...

somemore my platoon pple are all very happy-go-luck and when we march we would shout all sorts of things apart from the usualarmy songs... and the awy we call sergeant and sirs.. very farny and ya i like my platoon cos when i see other platoons, everyone seem to be sulking and realli serious...

ok den... abt myself... i am quite tanned now.. with an almost botak head... and down with fever... seems that the fever is spreading in our company cos quite a lot of pple had such high fever that they have to be sent home.. while those with slight fever were given MC from training... and in the end almost a quarter of any 1 platoon were down with fever... bad... hmmm wanna enjoy my christmas and wish everyone of u out there, A BERRI MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

ok... lots of things haben update... gonna move house and i am going to the army in a few hours time... wont be sticking ard here... but... I'LL BE BACK! so cya guyz soon... mean while take carez and dun forget abt me... missing ya all lots!

Woah... juz got back from chalet with sf, sc, wk, boo, chan, yk, yl, hc, eunice, jane, joy, wd, alvin and hc's friend called chuan xin if i am not wrong... haha yea.. it was a fabulous chalet... meeting new pple and juz chilling out...

first day was erm...

The past few days have been packing and packing and today, prepared me stuff to go chalet... oh ya... had a d'euqilco outing @ me house today... haha MJ and PS and bridge... it has been long since we indulge ourselves with such activities... as usual, the tai-tais wannabes dominate the mahjong table.. while the rest chill out with some games... den we celebrated boo's burthdae with a super nice cake... later, they went out while i went to me cousins house to visit me cousin from new zealand... hmm there are kinda cool and funkie... but that us kinda the norm in the society there i guess... and their mom, ( my aunt ) was telling me that studies in Canada is realli a breeze... can easily tackle it one... and my twin cousins who are 17 this yr are going to uni le... while i hafta do "SOMETHING" first... haiz.. bu tong ren bu tong ming!

Nvm... got home ard 12+ den started packing chalet stuff for the sf's chalet...

Firstly, THE EXAMS are OvER! benitto!! but i didn't realli feel kinda exuberant nor exhilerated... juz an uneasiness... mabbe cos i am going " overseas" or wadeva not there is...

Ok den after the last paper (physics paper 5), the whole juz burst into a joyous wooha... den after tt, went out with boo, sy, zj, mei nu and joyce... went PS thru little india(all my fault la)... haha den went to see whether r there any movies available... but sad to say, there ain't so went cafe cartel for dinner, juz sat there chat and laugh... den after that, went to the esplanade and walked ard and took photos... haha nice bunch of pplez... muz stay in contact kz...

den after tt, went home to pack up stuff to get ready to move house... haha

Hmm... past 2 days have been realli nerve-wrecking... but me gald it is over... haha the menancing 4-day-in-a-row-exam stretch will be approaching and i hope i realli and sail thru tt and woohoo.. i will be sorta gald and relax a bit...

Slacked thru yest and part of today... so feelin realli guilty so tmr gonna make up for the lost time... watch tomb raider on TV today i absolutely loved it... so damn nice... all the actions and mystics... so cool.. den watch jurassic park 3... think i liked the first one betta... mabbe it is much more original to me.. and charmed.. juz as nice as ever... haha french spy so cool and her french is fluent... wonder had she ever taken french classes b4... so cool... hmmz mabbe me gonna try regain my command of french after the A's... luckily me textbooks are still with me...

ok den... abt the A lvls.. i hope i can do well and i think i can... cos confidence but not complency is the key to success... maths and chem are ok except some stoooopid mistakes here and there which i kinda regret not realli paying attention to it... and GP paper which was eons ago was hmmm i dunno know... let cambridge tell me.. haha ...

Anyway was planning all the games gala after the A's so that me can enjoy each and every second b4 i go abroad... and wanna spend time moving the house and with me family too... hope the time allows for tt...

"Life is like a journey on a boat that sits only one person and allows no other
person on board. even if we see people struggling in the waters, there is no way
we can pull them into our boats because there is no room for them. however, it
is heartening to know that there are friends sailing in their own boats looking
at the same brightest star. though they cannot be with you in your boat, the
thought of them being around in your heart and looking at the same beautiful
star is enough."

Haha couped this from a friend's blog... think is kinda interesting... but to a certain extent.. not very true...

To my friend... i hope u dont mind although i know i'm gonna get serious shit from u... haha

Feelin realli guilty now... juz came back from the movie premiere of " The Incredibles"... that is like so damn cool... Me first time... haha

Hmmm.. went there with my bro and is at cineleisure... The sg idols were there and the pple were creating a great hooha over 5 pple... irritating and all the entrances are stuffed and protected... shit lor... took me like 20 mins just to get to 6 lvl... haha.. got there den waited for the show to start... there is free gifts too... haha...

The show is the typical super-hero show with super power... den got this super evil villian and this family of super-heros hafta save the day... The father with super strength and agility ( Mr. Incredible), the mother with super elastic body.. realli cool (elastigirl), den the daughter (violet) with the power of invisibility and shield... den the son (dash) with super speed and excellent reaction... still got this realli cute baby (jack-jack) at the end, he showed some power whereby he is able to transform into anything he want... The powers are kinda cool but the plot was kinda cliche... There was lots of technology involved... and those are realli futuristic and realli awesome! I oso like the well-known designer Edna mode... she is realli farny... haha.. Overall i recommend this show...although is kinda cartoon... it realli brings back memories of childhood... haha

Oh well it is time to hit the books again... JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!

Hmmm... gave me blog a fresh outlook.. and hope wat i am gonna blog gets posted... and not lost in cyber space AGAIN!!!... like wad happened to my other 2 blogs that i published.. argh!!!

Anyway taking a little break now... gonna hit the books later... nuthing much recently... juz an attack if the influenza virus and recovering from it... and more mugging and studyin... Realised i got so much more and so little time... but this is the FINAL BATTLE... so all the way... heheh

And thanks to all those out there... and jia youz all...

Oh ya... GP down and a few more to go... Count the days... and cross ur fingers :)

Hmmm.. Came back from tuition and muz say that Mr Ong is realli good... luckily he not teaching in RJ anymore if not my physics wont improve haha... And oso Mr lim for helping me out in lots of situations... taking a break here from the studyings... shall recount things tt happened the past few days... Hmmz... graduation day on 18/10/2004... went to sch cos there is this grad ceremony... think this is a great idea and a realli nice farewell gesture from the sch... as usual stats for the prelims and blah blah den it was photos and wishes from teachers to us... ( something like cat high ) den sang the national dream... kinda touchy den... haha den pple take photos and i stood there thinking abt the many many things... later, proceeded to the amphitheatre with claz pple to take photos and get results... and made speech... that realli sent me thinking... i said something like " this class gave me experiences that i had never experienced before... the sweet sour and bitter of life..." think is quite true... when i got into NJ, kinda regretted it... but after much bonding with the class pple, things changed for the better and realli, i had fun times and was glad to know pple there... although there were bitter times... i still liked my class... den during november last yr and the dec hols, i started to think in depth and becoz of SOMEONE, i've made a decision tt prob is the worst one i ever made... mabbe i didnt think of the repurcussions, but since i had went on with it, i shld bear the consequences now... nvm... life is like tt, only when u realli learn it the hard way will u ever change for the better, yupz and i realli know now... just wanna offer me apologises to pple... yupz..

rmb after tt, wen to take photos with d'euqlico at the atrium and archives... oso took photos with judy, zx, sc, sf, wk, yk, joyce, joy, vaish,sian chen, bx, jy, yx, yq, madeline, jl, grace... lots off pple.. realli had fun.. i WILL NEVER FORGET U GUYS after leaving NJ *sobz*.. love ya lots...

Hmmm.. still got pple from S27 i haben take photos with like zhen jie ( i will miss u haha), joyce, mei nu, huiyi, teo, han, siok, huiting, suyi

interact excos... weihan, shileng, kangyu, mel, anqi, huiyian, abigail... wanna thank u all for the wonderful experince... and apologises for the many mistakes... realli must meet up one day as i promised... sorrie though hehe...

Still got... shiyun, wanying, jasmine, nicole, jian kai. ivy, de quan, chs pple ( weijie, dominic, eugene, roy ) and many many more... doesnt mean i never list u means dont forget u all le... nope wont one!

Yupz... hmm that day quite happie and fun so yupz... good luck to all...

The following days have been going to sch to mug with sc sf wk yk and chan... more of like talking and not much of mugging... but realli had fun... took even more photos... den friday went to cut hair at this place YK suggested... think is quite good... so ty to yk... haha... next, we were planning to go cruise and farewell for yk cos he going in on 8 while me and wk going in on 11... sad but inevitable... in the end booked chalet le so yupz... going to realli have fun after the A's... next gotta have d'euqilco chalet and realli meet up with all me friends b4 going off to NS... i will miss u all... juz the tot of it i already missin u all...

Ok back to mugging so to all of u out there... good luck for the exams and ~peace out~

Yeah!!!... gave me blog a nice make over... so THAT it will be different from other pple's blog...

Gave me blog a natural feel, and hope that those who read this finds it claming and may it bless u with the power of mother nature and all the luck for ur 'A' levels!!! Good Luck all...

oh yea... think my blogspot is up again!!! trying out here!

iF NOT... den visit me at www.livejournal.com/users/donomi

woohoo... great at least i can try to run my blogspot now... yupz... these one month me blog has been down... argh!!! but nvm at least now i can try to blog... so i will like copy me livejournal blogs over... but i will still blog at 2 places... if u cant access this blog u cant access mine at www.livejournal.com/users/donomi

Realli deserted this place for quite a while... so wanna write something so it would get dusty...

recently the tt craze starting to unwind... hmmm... cool game but due to exams... den gonna die out soon... haha... nvm after exams den play ba...

was thinking much recently... live for like 18 yrs liaoz... den soon i am gonna move into the next phase of my life... is just i am reluctant to grow up... to leave the state i am in now... how i wish... how i wish...

exams have been a big part of my life... and now i am facing another impt exam... both prelims and 'A's... so muz jia you... esp after SCREWING UP THE DISGUSTING CHEM PRAC!

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i blogged yest... but the stupid com didnt post it up! ARGH!!!

anyway, yest was the start of the hungry ghost festival... so bei ruan shuo hua!!! haha

slept very late on sunday... but qi guai... yest day i was quite energetic... haha blabbered lots...

today very tired... argh... shall re-blog soon!

WOW!!! today have been a blast and a wast!... haha

today is the start of the hungry ghost festival, so better mind what we say, if not sure jia liat one...

Slept damn late last night ard 2 something like that... was doing work... tot today will be so tired that i can concentrate and do work with fullest attention. budden to me surprise, i can concentrate rather well... esp during physics... Hmm dunno y, recently i feel the vibes towards physics, and getting interested... that is a good sign haha...

den it was usual lessons and then chem lect, haha it was very farny then, cos me very hyper le... so over the moon and everything, kept blabbering... den on the way home oso blabber non-stop... that is the hyper me... haha

den went hoem did work till now until juz now i got so flared up by my parents... but now ok le... haha think i not enough sleep den bad temper... but i guess today wont be sleeping early again... argh!!! i miss my bed..

Thankx to cailing for the encouragement card!!!

hmmz... today econs mock test... HORRIBLE!!! but expected la... nvm, shall work hard now. Den after that, went to the study table there to do work with SC, SF, WK and YK... den chatted lots more than we did work haha.. but it was fun la... talking to them and relaxing esp after an exam...

After that, we went to meet boo and joel at somerset before we go to joel's club to do work out at the gym and then played table tennis... woah! damn tiring leh... then later, went to snacked out at long john's silver and then wanted to eat swenson de ice-cream... budden there was this long queue... so suan le... wed den eat ba... after tt went home le..

Waited for the 7pm YI TIAN TU LONG JI!!! Oh My god... my favourite show... still thinks my ou xiang is suitable for gu chuang xi... OH MY GOD! He is juz so zai!! oh my... juz like in huan zhu ge ge... oh my... but this time got all the wu gong involved!!! wa juz totally my fav le... fav on top of fav on top of fav... wa... i like super HAPPIE!!!! haha... i oso wanna learn jiu yang shen gong and all the very zai shen gong... haha... wu xia xiao shuo is my FAV!!!! my god... i rmb yi tian tu long movie by jet lee and i am totally hooked to it le... but when the CD for this yi tian tu long comes out, even though is sg production, I WILL CONFIRM buy it one... think su you peng more suitable for guai guai and short hair and gu chuang... gu chuang ROX!!!

I WAN GU CHUANG TOO!!!! i dont mind wearing that... even if i have to parade in front of everybody and it is PINK!!! haha

Hmmz... felt kinda down today, which i dunno y too?!?!?

Think i am overly-stressed liaoz... Econs mock test this sat, Napfa tmr, and just lots and lots of things... and i have been self-consoling myself for the whole afternoon...

Luckily i juz broke the news abt me REALLI lousy results to me parents and tot wld surely get a scolding but i didnt.. instead they juz encourage me lor... HENG AR!!! although i feel very guilty now... but that is one thing off my mind.

Hmmm... organized me econs file, juz to find it so THICK!!! argh... full of contents and concepts... JIA YOU LE!!!!! studied some econs and ya... juz feel so unprepared... mabbe is my mood for today ba... *sObZZzzZ*

Was thinking abt the Napfa tmr... wonder how i will fare (even though I KNOW how i will fare)... but in any case, i have been an wei-ing myself... and ping ming do dumbells... sian diao...
I am juz paradoxical now la... on one hand, if i manage to pass Napfa tmr, i will not go in early, which is a good thing, and can spend more time with family and friends, but after tt go into some company where everyone is so strong and fit, den it wld be terrible, and very easy get sabo-ed...
Den on the other hand, if i not pass tmr Napfa, i will go in early, but my company will be some lousy, slack slack kind, den i can be the fittest there and not get sabo-ed that easily... oso can familiarize myself with the environment there blah blah blah... but the thing is i spend lesser time outside that darn camp... hmm so fan ar fan ar!!!!
it kinda turns into a phobia after so long and it fear and uncertainty sets in, hindering results and progress... wats more, added stress: everyone ard me are passing Napfa but me... ARGH!!!

So i juz try to shun qi zhi ran... in anycase... i CAN'T!!! argh!!!

hmmz... national was juz national dae.. nuthing much... Singapore Idol juz sux!!.. although some can really sing... mabbe i wld watch some.. but not all...

today went to sch after the long weekend.. realize things!... shall work on some issues

woohoo.. this is me 100th blog! memorable... so gonna blog this unforgettable blog!!!

mundane day at first... used the whole morning + afternoon to do physics... then ard 5 liddat, me went for tuition. At ard 730, when me tuition ended, me and boo rushed all the way to esplanade to watch the fireworks festival... a farn thing is tt LM asked me to buy that thing... den tot it was very farny... haha.. nvm when we reached there... it was juz bustling with human crowd and the place is juz CONGESTED!!! woah!!! den me and george was like FRANTICALLY trying to call LM they all to see where r they.. budden in the end, didnt get to watch the fireworks with them... but the fireworks were MAGNIFICANT! so nice... it is as if it is telling a story... the small ones... the golden spiral ones... the continuous display of constant blast of colours... u r juz AWED!! i was totally stunned by that awesome show... den pple were so high lor... and STINKY too... haha

Later, was still frantically trying to get to they all... den FINALLY!!! boo got thru and he went to meet them! thank god... haha... den we squeezed thru the crowd to get to gardien to get *** yea den went to the bras besar Macs to eat and talk... wanted to party at the stage there one... budden hungry le... so went to eat... Benny joined us later... den later after eating went home... and say this couple doing some obscene stuff which LM commented on so loudly tt the guy diaozed us... kaoz... den went home...

HAO LEI ar... budden keep going out with the clique doesnt make me sian diao... juz make me miss them even more... haha

D'euqilco!

OH my... today is the national day celebration @ NJC... haha.. took the later 852 bus with med... and was chatting all the way there, and i got to know a SHOCKING news... very nice person to chat with... anyway was anticipating that i would be late, but haha i was early!! heng heng ar... went to my class and took attendence b4 meeting royston they all behind solaris...

Told SC, SF, WK and chan the NEWs... and they wer totally shocked too... oh ya! thankx SC for the totful book mark... hehe...

Den we did all sorts of farny things there... screamed for nuthing and realli gone MAD!!! haha when solaris shouted the "solaris ooei, solaris ooei, solaris oooo, aaaa yeah" we shouted sasa instead of the ooooo, aaaaa, yeah... den when other houses shouted this cheer, instead of sasa, we shouted ooo, aaaaaa, yeah... haha den the whole solaris turned ard and diaoed us.. so cool... den everyone started to look in our direction!.. when singing the songs home and where i belong, we all sing zao sia and all sorts of funnie tune and notes, made the whole song so horrible... haha damn farny...

This yrs the gift quite exquisite and personalized, is this pair of socks red and white with me name on it... think hse reps this yr realli doing a good job... Not to mention, AERIUS won second!!! wooooo yeah!!! we rox...

ok den after that, went to northpoint to have brunch, since they decided to come me hse to play.. so ate brunch and went to swensen to eat the $1.60 including service charge of topless 5 ice cream... it is very the hua suan lor... very very good... muz go eat it b4 the offer ends... hehe

after that, boo, chan, XQ , LM, shiwen, EX, agnes and alvin came to my hse to play and relax... came me hse, played game of life with EX, agnes, XQ, shiwen and alvin, while boo, chan and LM were fighting over street fighter, with the shuai ge and the bitch... haha so farny... they were saying the bitch very li hai!!! haha... den we watched spiderman and ate snacks... me mom made some dumplings... haha den after that, EX and alvin left, while shiwen and boo play the street fighter, LM, chan, agnes and XQ play MJ, with me teaching them... farny seeing beginners play.. very farny haha...

den, we had this idea of cooking dinner by ourselves, so went NTUC to buy the ingredients to make spaghetti and cheesecake for desert... woohoo... toke like 1+ hr to get ready the food and when we had time to savour it we were all like WOAH!!!... cos very hungry liaoz... and it tasted better cos everyone had put in work to do up this dinner... we realli know how to pamper ourselves... buy sparkling juice and everything... woah!... realli shuangz!!!! haha.. after that, played more MJ and watched dong cheng xi jiu, while savouring the cheese cake... although not very well done, but still nice la... den it was abt 11+ liaoz... den they went home...

Hmmmz... muz say this is realli a happening day!! yeah!!

woah... juz came back not long ago... damn tired... had interact installation and yea!! my term of office is OVER.. sad but fortunately, i can have more time to study and deal with my own stuffs esp with so many remedials going on... realli gonna have a hard time handling all these...

anyway, it was so farny during the installations.. abigail doing all sorts of farny things and i oso paisehed myself... argh shall not elaborate... hehe.. den reception and photo-taking... with the 33rd, 34th and the 35th... san dai tong tang... yeah some more full strength!!... so cool yeah! it was very very memorable i muz say... den went KAP for tradition dinner and gift exchange... got this best-seller bk from my junior and i gave him me pressie and the rest of the exco!! woohoo... my god! realli had fun lorz... after that, went home with rachael, weiyan, huiling (33rd exco) on the taxi... and they were telling me all the uni stuff... like module biddin, plan ur time table, hostel orientation and everything and it is very interesting... but sad to say they still miss the spoon-feeding NJ... so i muz treasure this time at NJ haha... yea!

argh.. these few days come home soo late... hafta wake up 5 hrs later to go sch le... buai buai

Today is one of the best days of my JC life...

Woke up feeling rather tired cos i was making agar agar till like 1 in the morning... haha budden slept a bit on the bus... so not so bad... den during civics, i went to take the EAGLES award form, cos i think i wanna have a shot at it... yupz

den the usual classes and den class ended... after sch, me ex lm and boo went to some lana cake hse to buy choco cake for Agnes, as belated burthdae... haha den were talking... den did some work b4 going for the investiture... were late and made a realli AA entrance... haha that is wat we always do!!! haha... den made loads of noise and farny comments!!! absolutely farny... LM and nick were mimi-ing, den i was screaming and shouting and basically making loads of noise... haha... den i was quite surprised when the tanbo juniors gave me all those gifts!! thankx guys... realli appreciate it... haha den thankx to mingtze, joy, shufen, soo chin, chan... haha realli surprised... realli... yupz... den we went to celebrate Agnes de belated burthdae... b4 that we were like making agnes fantasize abt the cake saying how it would be nice to have a real chocolatey cake and creamy and all sorts of things... den we were like dripping saliva liaoz.. haha den sang the burthdae song and cut cake and take photos... den later nich started the cake fight by smearing cake all over agnes den LM joined in... den boo kena the worst haha... LM is the "murderer" haha... boo is the ultimate victim hehe...

After tt, went to AMK central with shiwen to buy her jay CD while i buy somethings too.. den took 853 home.. on the bus, i sat with this old lady all the way to yishun and she was talking to me abt her family and sons and grandsons... haha and was saying all sorts of things... haha... sometimes talking to a lao ren beats talking to a nian qing ren... juz a moment of tot...

yea! i survived today! i am a survivor... was blowing my nose off today argh!! den almost wanted to give up and go home... but i jian chi dao di... hehe

had the AC and the analogue test.. tot i confirm wan dan one... budden it turned out otherwise... and i didnt cheat kz... cos i was sitting alone on the last bench in the lab lorz... haha...

den during phys make up lect... again another test... budden this one will surely (YICKS!) ya u shld know wad i mean!!!

walked out of sch with joyce, mei nu and ying qi... den joked so much... realli.. i think S27 rox!! haha... their class so farnz... the huimins... and han.. thanx for your tissues.. den joyce, meinu, qian, boo, chan, zhenjie, so many...

haha... juz reminding myself that i didnt make a bad choice in choosing NJ as me sch!!! yea!!! realli ren shi LOTS of pple... and those who only know pple from their class only, IT IS TIME TO GET A LIFE... A SOCIAL LIFE!!! haha!!! yea... they shld know who i am refering to... haha

Decided to blog b4 the clock strikes 12... Anyway... not realli an eventful day... juz hectic and tiring...

Yest, which is sat, i packed my sciences file (chem and physics)... took me like 3 hrs something... kaoz... physics alone took me 2 hrs... cos there is just too many things. I had to use a total of 3 files in order to accomodate all my notes and ws... *PenGzZz*

Today. woke up quite early but went to sleep again... den finally woke up at 10... argh!!! watched the usual kids central show, but i kinda like it... haha entertaining... Den tried to do some physics cos later got tuition den muz prepare, but it was a total flop... did the papers, just to find out how much i couldn't do... but nvm I WILL PROVE MYSELF!!! haha

had tuition... the teacher is rather funkie like wat LM says... met lots of familiar pple there (shocked)... but think the tuition damn good... it only took him like 5 mins of explanation to understand wat a 15 mins worth of lecture is abt...

came home started to mug and do work till now.. yawnzzz. Very tired, but wat to do, have to finish at least 90% of my work b4 sleeping... so hope tmr is half day den can relac a bit...

YawnzZzZ... tried to type my blog... but the stopid internet had some prob and i had to re-type this again... while waiting for my hair to dry so tt i can SLEEP!!!!

HmMm... today PE was cancelled again and i ended up in TB block doing work with boo and chan... oh ya... suaned chan abt his NEW bag... hmmm but realli didnt suit him...

den it was lessons till chem prac... woah!!! very fast-paced and gan jeong manz... i was like practically zooming here and there... and i added the starch indicators like no one's business... cos gwee said add more so i added even more!!!... haha

den played risk with eugen and suet and KY and me and suet ally WON!!! hehe... no big deal... later was rehearsal... realli hope that the 35th exco can realli SHINE!! and do us proud... jia youz... was helping them out with the installation...

Anyway after tt, went to KAP for dinner... and crapped loads over there with the exco... and laughing hard... cool... hmm den went home with eug and KY while meddling and playing gamed on KY's NEW phone sia.... haha is quit cool la... some sony ericsson one... newest model lor... haha

YawnzZzZ... tried to type my blog... but the stopid internet had some prob and i had to re-type this again... while waiting for my hair to dry so tt i can SLEEP!!!!

HmMm... today PE was cancelled again and i ended up in TB block doing work with boo and chan... oh ya... suaned chan abt his NEW bag... hmmm but realli didnt suit him...

den it was lessons till chem prac... woah!!! very fast-paced and gan jeong manz... i was like practically zooming here and there... and i added the starch indicators like no one's business... cos gwee said add more so i added even more!!!... haha

den played risk with eugen and suet and KY and me and suet ally WON!!! hehe... no big deal... later was rehearsal... realli hope that the 35th exco can realli SHINE!! and do us proud... jia youz... was helping them out with the installation...

Anyway after tt, went to KAP for dinner... and crapped loads over there with the exco... and laughing hard... cool... hmm den went home with eug and KY while meddling and playing gamed on KY's NEW phone sia.... haha is quit cool la... some sony ericsson one... newest model lor... haha

YaWnZzZ... came home like 11+ today... usual sch.. w/o PE!!! dunno y... seems that PE is being cleared off the time table... anyway wanted to do some work with boo and chan... but in the end ended up crapping... lolz... maths lect and physics lect... den chem prac... woah!!! muz mention this week the chem prac... woah like rushing for bus liddat... damn hectic and gan jeong... was laughing at myself... cos i was addin the starch indicator like no one's business since gwee said muz add a lot... haha

After tt, went ot play risk with KY, eugene and suet( hope correct spelling)... den me and suet won!!! haha... den had the rehearsal for interact installation... hmmm hope the juniors will do well and have fun being exco!!! haha...

ate at KAP and crappd loads with the exco, while planning a outing... den went home... meddling with KY's NEW phone sia... haha very cool... sony ericsson one...

Today, went for early, Finally... got home.. started to mug a little, den dozed off for 30 mins.. and after tt got back to work... hmm feels good to be studying...

In the evening, talked to KY, den tell him stuff and talked abt stuffs too... haha... nice guy, can realli talk to him... and talked abt some issues that i have tried to forget... but never mind... life still goes on yea.. hehe... den oso talked to WY... stopid guy... BMT oso can injure ankle haha... now doing all the realli slack jobs... haha so cool! can slack during NS... talked abt prelims and how to do well... he is damn clever lor... can get like wat? AAAB and GP A2... my god... i wanna do better than that!!!! haha i will work hard... getting more stuffs from him... yea thankx!! knew him for like 6 yrs... even though he is 1 yr older than me... haha.. miss those times together man... thankx for all his guidance... although not much but very encouragin... hehaheha...

Den was thinking of me sec sch class 4-8... damn cool class... fun and yea.. the best class in cat high lor... haha... the teachers are all very good... everyday learn in a fun environ... keep irritaing the teachers and have fun... realli miss those times... esp Krishnan!!! haha... mabbe shld try to have fun with my teachers in JC too... haha...

Have been thinking abt it... think i have made a good choice in coming to NJ... got to know d'euqilco! cool guys and girls... haha we realli CLIQUE man... haha... den few of the pple in my class i will miss... definitely ALL CO peepz and interact exco and some of my com pple... and S27 girls like huiting, mei nu, hui mins and many more... my juniors... GP class pple... Chong han, xue shan, hwee min... cool pple... always having fun at GP with them... cant imagine GP w/o them?!?! TERRIBLE!!! haha... Think i will miss JC life afterall... after all that has happen from end of last yr till mabbe late march? that emotional period... hmmm... i have also learnt to be strong... even though i have made the worng decisions... since u cant come to regret it... andi very stubborn one... so prob i wont try to make up.. yupz... haha... such an emotional blog... hehe... but prob i will keeping repeating this... cos i am ALREADI MISSING U ALL!!!!

Hmm.. forgot to mention that last week had been a emotional rollercoaster... woo hoo... high and low periods... but it is OveR!

Past few days is juz plain tiring... lessons everyday till like wat 630??? got home quite late everyday... sian diao... wanted to get home early to spend time with me family.. but... argh!!

today went for physics make up lect and got called so many times by him... so paiseh... den answer wrongly oso.. haha... after tt went out with lm, agnes, sw, nich... went bishan cos me wanna go register for me physics tuition (which i am seriously in need of!) tried the satay burger and it was alrite... tot it wld be FANTASTIC but yea.. wasnt blown away ( haha i sound like Randy from AMI)... sat at MOS and told jokes and all the psychological tests... so interesting and lots of jokes... haha... great times man... den MUJI to buy me dad's bdae pressie...

shld do work le... jia youz...

Penny for my tot: Hmm... i was thinking abt someone... although i am not realli in tune with him.. i mean the first impression and all the other opinions by other pple... budden recently heard something abt him and yar kinda ke lian him... i always liddat one... argh!!! if i ever see anyone eat alone or like very lonely esp. eating alone, i will feel very very sad... dunno over wat... juz a wave of sadness and makes me wan to go and pei that person and talk to him/her and be friendly.... argh!!! very confusing.. is like splitting me apart! budden... i will feel good after that and silly too.. haha

~CoOl !~ Blogspot upgraded alreadi... now this font seem to be very nice on my computer... i wonder how it would turn out to be like on the webbie... hehe

Anyway... wanna like update a while... cos realli too busy to update le...

Hmmm... most memorable one is the Aurora V NJCO concert!!! It is da bomb!
In the morning of 24/7/2004, woke up and packed up a while... cos me parents weren't in singapore... they went to HK for holiday... hehe.. anyway left home ard 930 liddat... and met d'euqilco at KAP for breakfast... den talked ard crapped as usual. After that, went to cold storage to buy food stuff and sweets in preparation for the later part of the day... reached sch rnd 1140... we were planning to play a trick on ee xuan... and make her cry... haha but in the end aborted the plan... diaoz! but anyway... changed and went to SCH for prac and wateva not... den dinner den the MAKE UP!! got mutilated... haha

Den it was the official start of the concert... first song was chang cheng... some mistakes,,, but it was VERY GOOD overall... simply love that song... den Jing lao shi's xiang qing and the da zao is damn nice... i muz realli admit his skills in GOD level... i was so amazed man... haha... Tan bo songs are nice esp tuo ling... next is gu zheng and den di zi song.... den is the stupid ji gong song... not the song is stupid... is my fault la... i was playing crap and cha was = to shit... haha sorry to xian yue peepz... anyway den is chun tian... i think that is the nicest part of the whole concert... jun ma, tian shan! haha... very nice... OMG... yeap!! and i muz say it is A HUGE SUCCESS!!! *cheerzZzZ* haha... so happie... thankx for those who attended the concert... quite a lot of pple... thankx!!!

After that went back to sch... den went out for dinner with SC SF chan and the di yin zhu peepz... found that they are a bunch of fun-loving pple... haha eat le den SF's sis and BF sent us home... thankx to them too.. haha went home... cleaned the house up a bit den slept at 3 something... haha...

hmm... the other days before the concert was mainly prac and more prac... den had loads of fun with the clique too.. screaming shouting acting... haha... everything

FRIENDS! MUZ ALWAYS STAY TOGETHER!!!! i am alreadi missing u all!!!

Hmmm... very long neber blog leh... shall blog one by one...

This is one on the last day of the youth day... went Limin's condo (guiling jing)... played murder at her hse and took some pics... next, we went to play pool at her hse there... lolz.. so farny... den played The Risk that board game... so nice lorz... den taught the rest how to play too... made a wholesome lots of noise man... haha cos it was plain fun, fun and more fun... Later, went BB macs there to have dinner and played the fortune telling ones too... the results are hilarious... (who got longest nose hair, who got man-boobs) haha... darn farny... haha

On the way home, our clique name is finally born!...

d'euqilco!



Hmm... sch started on a very sianz note... found out me new GP teacher is florence yap... hmm dunno how she is like lor... so hafta wait and see... den got back some results... was surprised at some, but expected some... haha surprised at maths, the first paper i got back... haha good surprise la... but still not fantastic.. yupz... den physics is so expected... so not gonna dwell too much on it

Woo... today went out with The Clique... had loads of fun....

They went for lunch first den me went to meet jasmine to get the membership cards back... for KTV discount... den later met and went to K-ster... well got there den aloy got enthu and started singing first... den subsequently we all started to sing too... xcept boo... den benny joined us at a later time... we were playing card games while the rest sing... den slowly, we started to play some fortune-telling games... haha kaoz.... so darn farny lorz... laughed until pengz... and aloy's tai feng... oso super farny... sang from like 2+ to 7+... and when we were abt to leave, benny and I acted a scene on throwing handphones... the thing is this... he got this fake hp, os shld i say a model one... that means anyhow throw oso nvm one... so when we were walking out of the KTV lounge, benny show me his phone and i threw it on the floor... and it broke into lots of pieces... den the waiters and waitresses there were looking very shocked and it was damn farny... i was laughing all the way to the MRT station to meet XQ... den we re-enacted the whole scene and tried to trick XQ... but this time is aloy and benny act... haha den benny stormed off after aloy dropped his phone... LOLZ.. damn farny... wat is even farnier is that suddenly LM asked benny how much was his phone... cos she tot the phone is real and is a very good phone cos is shock-resistent!!! all us pengz diao manz... darn farny... all the while of throwing, she tot it was some real phone??? haha ultimate one manz.... so we sent SW off and went to city hall for dinner... went to food junction to eat... and chatted... talked abt all the ghost stuff and all the encounters... realli interesting... laft the place ard 9+ and went to bra basar there to eat mac ice-cream as aloy had suggested... den sat down to play some more xuan ming games... and den left the place to go home cos quite late liaoz... when walking, we suddenly talked abt thongs and all the stuff... and saw some on display... lolz... so farny and LM said something abt a underwear with diamonds on it... haha... den boo said something abt robbing the underwear and den raping... damn farny... laughing all the way, planning wat to do for the next outing on monday... mabbe go someone hse to play... lolz...

AH... so exciting to go someone's hse to play... shld be very fun... cant wait manz!!!!

Yipee... finally 4 arduos dayz of CT is over!... Yupz... but strangely, i didnt feel relaxed, mabbe cos is that i am gonna pay for wat i have not studied later... yupz...

Irritating CTs deprive me of my sleep... on average i only had like wat??? 4hrs of sleep per day?? yucks considering i am a sleepy pig... hehe.. One thing that is different abt this CT is that i didnt prepare much for it and it was in fact rather much more relaxing... yupz... unbelievable! u dont feel any stress one... juz like doing some assignment with the whole sch liddat lor... haha

Today is the last paper... Chem! wanted to study for it but i was too tired so in the end i only did food chem... if can pass this, i wld be a miracle... haha... tot that this is one of the exam paper that i had ever done with my nicest handwriting haha... cos nothing really much to write since i didn't study much... anyway after the paper, went outside the hall to wait for the clique... den in the end, me agnes, SW, chan and boo went to PS for lunch and a little form of celebration... the rest had class outing...
Went to PS and wanted to have BK budden they were filming some add for BK den no space to sit and eat... so went MOS... later on went to carrefour to walk ard... den got stuck at the cd section where i finally found and bought my fav CD the " Dong Cheng Xi Jiu" but lots of stars but is a very old film... nonetheless, it is a really good and farny show... haha laughed until i pengz when i watched the show... anyway back to carrefour... watched harry potter there, when he was fighting the basilisk... *CoOlZzZ* den went to this section where all the elec piano where placed... den started to play them... oh ya aloy joined us then... played the paino for like 30 mins den decided to proceed on...

Walked out of PS... and all the way down to taka... *wOAh!!** was shocked at the amt of JC peepz walking there... muz be the after-exam-session kinda thing and everyone was out feeling some sunshine... haha... saw lots of pple... evon, benison and lots of NJ peeps... hehe... shopped ard at kino... den went to get some food and went to wisma the mac there for ice-cream... and we planned our activity for tmr... den went home after that...

At night ard 11+, JK, KY and eugene came to my hse to watch the match... played MJ b4 that... haha JK damn corny... in the end only win $1.70 but still alrtie... yeah... fun is that wat most matter... den when they watched the match, i was so tired that i juz simply went to sleep... LOLZ... told u i am a pig... next morning woke up to find the news of greece winning... i was so DIAOZ... didnt think greece wld win... haha...

Anyway brief summary of the CTs...

Monday
went to sch after lunching at home... met boo and chan and they were talking abt how bad their bio was... haha den had a 3 hr GP paper... wrote the essay on the media one... think is ok lor... can scrape a 23??? hope so... comprehension passage B was interesting... passage A was interesting too... juz that i dont understand wat the crap izzit trying to say... hehe... after that, went to buy tidbits to prepare for mugging... and went home to mug.... practiced maths... cos i realli fang qi econs liaoz...

Tuesday
woke up early in the morning and started to memorize all the integration thingy and maths stuff... den went to sch early... maths paper was hmmm bad for me... think can pass can liaoz... hope the prob sums can get correct... cant integrate some tan inverse complex shit that they set... *DisGusTEd!** anyway... started to mug for econs with agnes... den the two of us started to talk abt careers and stuff... and talk and talk... didnt realli cover much... but i oso heck-care liaoz... haha... Econs Paper is the longest lor... took me 4 hrs... kaoz... and like 3 hrs of non-stop writing... wa lew... haha... the MCQ sux! think get only single digit score... case study sux too... i was plainly copying everything from the text into my ans... essay was a bit better... at least i got something substentiable for me to crap abt... haha. After that, went home and started my mugging for physics when suddenly lots of pple started to call me abt the black-out... haha... only like yishun not affected... yishun is the BEST!... hehe.. budden after that, we no mood to study physics... so i juz went to sleep... and woke up very early yo compensate for wat i have not been able to complete the previous night...

Wednesday
Physics paper today... first time i think MCQ was alrite... at least the answer on my calculator can tally with one of the given option... haha... some question quite farny... like the alien one... haha... AFter the paper, went out with Roy and Eug for lunch den went home to mug for chem... but as i was to tired, i was partially slacking the time away... shicks!!!...

Was reading this compliation of the TIME magazine... there was this article abt some space stuff, about meteors and the end of the world... den, had this sudden thought that plunged me into thinking...

The article talked abt the universe expanding and i was like thinking that wat is outside the universe?... andthe person how came up with this theory muz be some realli wise guy... den i had this motivation to study... and out of no where i had a sudden boost of confidence for CT ahead... but this unknown confidence dont seem really reliable without much knowledge... but at this point i shan't deny such energy, but instead utilize this energy so i can no do so badly... yupz... new mentality for the sulken on yest.. hehe..

Oh ya dreamt of me having a wand and doing magic last nite... so cool.. muz be over-dosage of harry potter bk 5 for the past wk... hehe hope i dream of some maths or econs question tonite... haha...

getting ready to go for my GP paper now.. yupz so wish me luck!...

Now is alreadi 11pm... and i am trying to clear my mind of things here... no as if i am gonna go for occulumency... haha...

Juz feeling rather wierd here... i haben realli been studying and i think i am still in the holiday mood... lots of pple have been mugging real hard... and mugging like there is no tmr... but i have been like floating ard these days... doing the minimal revision i have ever done... shicks... it seems to me that i no longer cared abt sch and results and all the meritocracy crap that has been ard... although deep down inside i still wanna excell...

This CT has been disasterous... or wld be... or even both... i realli have no confidence watsoever and no mood to study... my revision schedule seem desultory... My stack of notes juz laid there waiting for me to study them... but i reluctant to touch them... i tried to really study but the notes seem to have some disarming charm that i had to push it away sometimes so as to catch my breath...

yicks and i am sitting for the exam in like 15 hrs time w/o being realli prepared???... i am so screwed!!! hope this will be over ASAP... i dont care wat happens next but i will start me full-force revision on the very monday preceeding the CTs...

Mon: GP
Tues: Maths
Econs- totally didnt study
Wed: physics - almost didn't study
Thurs: Chem

Look at that!... ARGH!!!!!

but nonetheless... jia youz to those out there who studied... and gd luck fer ur CTs!!!