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okie... went out with sf sc wk yk chan and boo... walking around jux enjoyin each other's company... people might regard this as something u would do if u hadn't got anything better to do... but i think otherwise... who cares wat other people think...

wat a good "who cares wat other people think" ... its something that i think i have semi-grasped it... was feelin a sense of pure and innocent happiness yesterday... i don't know how or why... but its like true la... i felt it... and it was like i am on wings... floating off the ground... levitating around... that pure essence of joy... INCREDIBLE!!! and i kinda broke away from the cacoon as a happier and a more colourful caterpillar??? yes indeed.. cos i know i haven't fully mature to a dazzling butterfyl... yupz... waiting for the time to arrive... and till den... i still am trying to grow...

PH!!! yes i realli need to get a hair cut... but i am sooo afraid that the barber will screw up my hairstlye and cause mayhem upon my silky top... and maybe tan myself up a bit... chocolate looks nice... hehe... i need the sun!!!


A thing of beauty is a joy forever;
Its loveliness increases; it will never
Pass into nothingness; but still will keep
A bower quie for us, and a sleep
Full of sweet dreams, and health, and quiet breathing.

ok... its lunch time and whew i had a filling lunch so relaxing a bit b4 working hard again... listening to canon in d by VBC (vienna boys choir)... absolutely soothing and serene... Hmmm still contemplating on taking a half day off tmr...

had lunch with boo plus reminiscing our sec sch days... feelin nostalgic... realli loved those days in sch... carefree and i juz miss them and everybody... like i can find so many pple to hang out with and everyone is under one roof... not even modern technology can beat that.

Trying real hard to conform to the resolutions i set.. *fingers crossed* and hope that i wont be regarded as an idiosyncratic numskull... prob wierd but it is worth a try... hmmm... feelin grateful to the com for providing me an avenue to express myself and my tots... ok... shall stop my whining here and for now... looking forward to charmed tonite and meeting up with friends... yupz!!

Ok... another day at work... feels kinda like some office job kinda thingy... office boy... hehe but i like it... i do have some sense of achievement... esp after photocopying like thousands of sheets of documents... hehe

feelin kinda moody today... i realli dont know but somehow, someway... i muz pull myself together... forget about everything... not literally EVERYTHING... as in things that i am clinging too much on... prob i am juz too sensitive... or izzit another phase in my life... the realli obnoxious NS life... its like i am kinda trapped in this cacoon... i know what i should and shouldn't do... i know the right and wrong way of life... but i am juz too confused and blinded by "things" (can't come up with a better substitution for this)... my "rampaging emotions" so-to-speak... haizz... and its hard for me to break away from all these jiggidies and metamorphasize... its kinda wierd that i kept telling myself to clear every unhappiness from myself and stay happy... but i realli get affected BIG TIME by things that happen around me... even nitty grittyies that i percieve as a priority. How dumb... but i made like that so i shall juz have to deal with it... yupz... its realli true though... was talking to ting and yupz... guess she was rite... i am still growing up and i shld take things in my stride , letting it pass by and go... learning lessons on the way.... Matters of the heart realli make or break u... learnt this lesson b4 and done it twice... or in fact a lot of times le... still fallin into the same trap... haiz... WAKE UP LE!!!!

Felt very sorrie for royston too... he got such a realli lousy vocation and posting... i mean although it is not mine or anything.. i could easily sit aside and laugh my head of his agony and shiong-ness... but i couldn't do that to a realli gd friend like him... i mean it is not a rule or some bonds that say i cant do that... but it is from deep down inside me that i realli empathize him and feel his agony and distraugh on his behalf... it is that BAD!.... emotions and hormones running amuck? i dont think so.. it is juz my nature... good luck chan! and hope all goes well for ya...

Whooo... had a realli busy day today at work... had to do up a place for some briefing. It wouldn't be that bad if there are more manpower and resources to go around... but everyone is being spread very thinly and resources are limited... haha sounds geographic... anyway after that met boo and went back together... haha.. its juz nice to have a realli good friend in camp... even though we're a road away... (literally)

oh ya.. and so sorrie to chan, yk, wk, sc, sf... pai seh can't join u all... went bowling and it was terrible... can't find the feel... and i injured myself... LOL... but its ok le... juz blisters...

In anycase... it was an emotional roller coaster for me today... at work and at the bus-stop... it was like tt ... saw 2 visually-handicapped people (it isn't realli appropriate and nice to address them as blin*) supporting each other while they walk towards their destination... den they stopped to ask passer-bys the location of the bus that they needed to take... somehow i realli feel the helplessness of these people... although much attention had been attached to them ( like the metals dots sprawling all over the floor in some orderly fashion and prob some coding?), it is still ungratifying to see helplessness in them... it realli makes me wonder how fortunate i am... but still i am bugged down by so many things... making a comparison btw them and me... i see that their only apparent worry... is that their handicap will hinder their daily routines and prob affect their life... it may seem major but it is a reasonable worry... for me... i would say that i have too many unduly worries that pesters me causing all these emotional "rock and roll"s... farny but true how human never get satisated... prob this wld cause my greatest downfall... oh wait.. i think it had already... haiz... but it doesn't seem to serve as a lesson learnt.. neither is it a history to rmb... alritey den... enuf of lamenting..

Hmmm... went to watch madagascar... cool and cute animated movie... very funny and relaxing... even though i had a splitting headache that day... realli loved the penguins... farny and cute... i think i am gonna get beanies of them... lol..alex is kinda cute too... but i think gloria ain't no gracious hippo... more like a busty bomb that would squeeze the daylights out of u if u ever piss her off... lol... oh ya.. the racoons (supposedly) are realli hilarious... and i realli love 'em...

hmmm become more of a movie junkie recently... but i like it... lol... but shld restrict it to only once a week... of twice la... dun too much if not it would be too taxing on my monetary account... haha... in any case is still very fun to watch movies with friends.. lol... yupz...

and friday... went back to NJ... nice feelin going back... attended interact club's AGM and got to meet fellow excos and seniors and juniors... realli missed them... and it realli felt great... realli great to juz mingle ard with them... thankx guys...

Have been going out these few days... and yupz... had fun of cos... watched star wars and i think it is quite star warsy.... lol... i mean is the normal star war kinda animations and scenario u wld expect and the plot isn't realli there... it is more of like an action-pack movie... yupz... and i think master yoda is so cute... small, cute... but deadly... haha... den after that went to play pool and bowling wit XQ LM aloy and boo... fun fun... den they came me house for contract bridge session which is by demand from LM... but is quite fun la... basically like dat lor... lol

LalaLA... jux wanna post an entry here... anyway me got posted to a new unit le... not quite sure wats going on yet... trying my best to adapt to everything... argh... many things happened and juz dunno wheere to start... ok den... so take care everybodie... and good luck...

wonderful day it is today... met up with the clique and watched The Interpreter... Cool movie and Nicole Kidman is realli COOL... she is very chio for a women her age... and she does have the X-factor that connects her with the audience...

Ok den ... went for dinner and do wat we usually do... sit down and chat and indulge in the company we have... i am juz so lucky to have u guys as my close friends... juz feel realli glad and yupz... thankx to u all!!

ok... a little note... things have been juz fine for me... nuthing fantastic nor out of the blue... nothing that can blast me off my seat as yet...

It seems that everybody have been buzy with their own new-found lives... and i dare say NS has been a test and obstacle for everybody... a test of friendship and relationships... In any case, i don't think i have been faring well in this test... but mabbe this will serve as an alarm to "wake up my idea" ( an NS slang)... haha so yupz... signing off here...

ok... another coveted update here...

juz completed a three week armour vehicle operator course... i muz say it had been an excellent experience learning something that is rather extraordinary to most pple... and the funnie thing is i actually enjoyed the course other than the usual regimental stuff and 'tekaning'

Initially i tot it wld be flooded wif pple of diploma educational stnds to be at the course since they usually have the technical skills and are skilled in practicality... but on the contrary... it is the theoretical pple dominating the course ( The JC peepz)... esp pple from the top 5 jc.. but anyway... i made quite good friends with some pple there... mainly from rj and hc... found that they are realli funnie fellas...

In anycase i think the course is kinda successful and i got quite a lot of nice experience over there...

Anyway watched two movies these weeks... actually one cos i watched the same movie twice... Its the pacifier... haha... I think its rather heart-warming and closer to the heart... and i like this kinda show... haha

ok den... went out with sc sf boo hc yk wd and chan to have lunch and talk talk a bit... den later walked ard... seriously... it think i have some shopping to do... den later, went to meet up with my 34th exco... realli haben seen them for a long time... and i'm gald that they are all well and doing juz fine... haha... took some photos and caught up a bit... den went home le...

Ok.. this might come a bit late... but i POPed le... haha now as a PTE i can keep my hair... lame but the sad life of a NS men can never be lamer... haha

a brief summary of my last week... went to both NUS and NTU open house and decided upon the course i wanna take... den went on a holiday with my family overseas... got my posting to some armour camp in lim chu kang... that is fate and that i have to accept... juz hope that i can pass these two yrs realli smoothly and hope to chong shi myself and not waste any time...

And seriously... trying to maintain contact wif many pple... but time doesn't allow... but rest assure... me will definitely meet up with u guys...

JUDY!!!... u owe me a meal... and when we meet better get meihui ar... debbie ar... stephanie ar... and all the CFPS peepz together...

still got lots of pple i wanna like juz meet up for a meal and plainly talk over with... that will be cool!!!

And to all... take care and rmb FORGET ME NOT!!! haha

Ok... haben been here for a very long time... indeed i have been very busy since NS... now better le... Think NS is realli a good experience... i got to fire a real rifle during my 3 days of range... get to get close to nature... shit and urine in the wild... sleeping under the starry sky and eating combat rations... learning the battle stuff and getting to know pple more... kinda cool but realli tiring... den on the last day did leopard crawl which is ultra tiring...

next was the live grenade throw... Super cool... like once in a lifetime kinda thing and the effect ROX!! the whole ground shaking and the visual effect is totally cool... esp when the grenade doesn't go off and the use C4 to blow it up... the effect is even more cool and WOW!

den it was the chinese new year break le... yeah my fav festival.. and i realli like put a lot of effort in preparing for it and i am realli juz plainly happy to like spend festivals with fam and friends esp when u r in NS now...

Hmm.. actually NS not that bad yet... cos u learn new things and practice stuff u will never get to learn in ur life... and u get to meet pple from all walks of life and of diff bckgrnds and status and character... and u learn to treasure the freedom u have now when u book out...

ok den.. at this point... i would like to wish everyone a very happie new year and hope that it would be a better year and good health and luck to everyone... once again... HAPPIE NEW YEAR

Yeah!.. today is the new year... a brand new year for me to live thru and enjoy... though this yr would be my NS year... I wish that my family will be healthy and earn lots of money... my 'A' level results will be fantastically good and my sis's 'O' level results will be better than mine... and hope my siblings will do well and cope well with their studies... my friends to have a great year ahead... and wishing good health and best wishes to everybody!...

For me?.. i hope that i can get thru NS smoothly w/o much tekening... and yupz
to all out there... HAPPIE NEW YEAR

almost the new year le... so counting down at my new house...

yeah... i survived the 2 wks of confinement... now i am a free person... yeah!... wanna say that my preception of army life in the past is totally differnt now... cos there isn't tekaning as yet.. and the welfare is realli good... somemore there is quite a few breaks here and there and more time to slack... however the pt is still kinda tough...

I learnt quite a lot of stuff like boot tying, smart 4 sleeves, FBO and SBO and stand by bed/area/universe... and lots of foot drills and commands... luckily i got a bunch of realli nice bunk mates and often talk cock together and laugh... haha... but most of the time, vulgarities are still quite rampent and u gotta take it in ur stride and not get pissed or even cry..

these 2 wks is the most kong bu wk... but luckily i survived it and for the coming wks, i can book out on sat and bk in on sun... and i will be drawing my M16 next wk?? that will be cool... but there is still heavy responsiblilty for getting a rifle...

somemore my platoon pple are all very happy-go-luck and when we march we would shout all sorts of things apart from the usualarmy songs... and the awy we call sergeant and sirs.. very farny and ya i like my platoon cos when i see other platoons, everyone seem to be sulking and realli serious...

ok den... abt myself... i am quite tanned now.. with an almost botak head... and down with fever... seems that the fever is spreading in our company cos quite a lot of pple had such high fever that they have to be sent home.. while those with slight fever were given MC from training... and in the end almost a quarter of any 1 platoon were down with fever... bad... hmmm wanna enjoy my christmas and wish everyone of u out there, A BERRI MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

ok... lots of things haben update... gonna move house and i am going to the army in a few hours time... wont be sticking ard here... but... I'LL BE BACK! so cya guyz soon... mean while take carez and dun forget abt me... missing ya all lots!

Woah... juz got back from chalet with sf, sc, wk, boo, chan, yk, yl, hc, eunice, jane, joy, wd, alvin and hc's friend called chuan xin if i am not wrong... haha yea.. it was a fabulous chalet... meeting new pple and juz chilling out...

first day was erm...

The past few days have been packing and packing and today, prepared me stuff to go chalet... oh ya... had a d'euqilco outing @ me house today... haha MJ and PS and bridge... it has been long since we indulge ourselves with such activities... as usual, the tai-tais wannabes dominate the mahjong table.. while the rest chill out with some games... den we celebrated boo's burthdae with a super nice cake... later, they went out while i went to me cousins house to visit me cousin from new zealand... hmm there are kinda cool and funkie... but that us kinda the norm in the society there i guess... and their mom, ( my aunt ) was telling me that studies in Canada is realli a breeze... can easily tackle it one... and my twin cousins who are 17 this yr are going to uni le... while i hafta do "SOMETHING" first... haiz.. bu tong ren bu tong ming!

Nvm... got home ard 12+ den started packing chalet stuff for the sf's chalet...

Firstly, THE EXAMS are OvER! benitto!! but i didn't realli feel kinda exuberant nor exhilerated... juz an uneasiness... mabbe cos i am going " overseas" or wadeva not there is...

Ok den after the last paper (physics paper 5), the whole juz burst into a joyous wooha... den after tt, went out with boo, sy, zj, mei nu and joyce... went PS thru little india(all my fault la)... haha den went to see whether r there any movies available... but sad to say, there ain't so went cafe cartel for dinner, juz sat there chat and laugh... den after that, went to the esplanade and walked ard and took photos... haha nice bunch of pplez... muz stay in contact kz...

den after tt, went home to pack up stuff to get ready to move house... haha

Hmm... past 2 days have been realli nerve-wrecking... but me gald it is over... haha the menancing 4-day-in-a-row-exam stretch will be approaching and i hope i realli and sail thru tt and woohoo.. i will be sorta gald and relax a bit...

Slacked thru yest and part of today... so feelin realli guilty so tmr gonna make up for the lost time... watch tomb raider on TV today i absolutely loved it... so damn nice... all the actions and mystics... so cool.. den watch jurassic park 3... think i liked the first one betta... mabbe it is much more original to me.. and charmed.. juz as nice as ever... haha french spy so cool and her french is fluent... wonder had she ever taken french classes b4... so cool... hmmz mabbe me gonna try regain my command of french after the A's... luckily me textbooks are still with me...

ok den... abt the A lvls.. i hope i can do well and i think i can... cos confidence but not complency is the key to success... maths and chem are ok except some stoooopid mistakes here and there which i kinda regret not realli paying attention to it... and GP paper which was eons ago was hmmm i dunno know... let cambridge tell me.. haha ...

Anyway was planning all the games gala after the A's so that me can enjoy each and every second b4 i go abroad... and wanna spend time moving the house and with me family too... hope the time allows for tt...