Okie... i have accumulated a whole butt of things to blog, so hang in there!

oh yeah, went KL for an intended super shoppin spree. But it was disappointing, since i tot there would be cheaper stuff there for sale on top of the high exchange rate. If u ever visit KL, dun go into those huge metropolitian shopping centre that looked as if it would be expensive to shop inside, cos IT IS expensive to shop inside. HAHA. Nonetheless, i still did some shoppin, jux keepin a tab on how much is being spent yeah.

It was den, me leave period, which was FILLED with activities okie... met my excos after some time to like meet up and catch up. It was extremely fun and we realli chat and talk and discuss abt everything under the sun from the love philsophy to the meaning of life to lots of other stuff... den we had steamboat and most of the pple ganged up on huiyian... poor gurl haha... den there was so much food and stuff that we had to play the improved version of zhong ji mi ma where the one who got the number correct will not be forfeited to eat something from the steam boat, but those two beside the one will have to eat soemthing... haha so yeah it was everyone's game. We had fondue with semi-hardened nutty chocolate and fresh juicy fruits. It was delectable and simply heavenly yes! den played a new game psychiatrist and started our discussion. Took a lot of photos at the end and tried many positions and poses and formations, realli cool and the effects are simply GREAT! missin ya guys alreadi... hope that we realli have another time to meet up yeah. take carez in the mean time.

Visited SC and joyce with SF and aloy at their workplace and i am truely fasinated by the cashier register machine, realli fun to play with haha. After that went SF house for MJ session, and we concluded that SF hse is an awesome place to enjoy... bungalow leh, how can u not enjoy? and all the high tech stuff and many many more... simply an outrageouly huge place to play and chill! went for a mini shoppin and bought some stuff b4 going home.

Was supposed to be on leave on the 22nd, but hafta go back to camp to do some stuff, den after that went to watch KING KONG after going home to pai pai. KING KONG is a little bit draggy but its like it depics a love that transcend thru inter-species relations, even animals without an advance knowledge but armed with primitive emotions and instinct has the ability to give love and reciprocate wads been taken. Its jux that pure, and it is jux that realm of fantasy where perfectionism sets in and nuthin is being injected with "socio-ism", which starts to affect pple and that is where pornograhy evolves from and rapist and all the cons of the society emerges. Watching KING KONG makes me realise how much the world is containing within its boundaries.

Christmas!!! a season to give and take recieved some cards and pressie... THANKX to all, yupz and MerRie christmas.

WhEW!

First things first, there wasn't much updating for the past 2 wks cos i was on exercise (not the literal one, but militarily-wise). It was mentally tiring more than physical exhaustion, but objectively speaking, it was still a great experience, trying to learn things along the way, sort of like self-benefiting. It was realli taxing on my financial budget too, considering all the transport fees i have to spend, but oh well its over. Okie, shan't go too much in depth, jux in case i am infringing upon sensitive security issues.

Christmas is so much around the corner, festivity is not as strong as the past few years, mabbe its becos i havent realli got in touch with the feel of christmas that is ballooning outside. Yeah i shld get out there, and get my christmas shopping on the ball rolling, although i am still brainstorming abt the pressies i shld get. Hmmmz...

Oh ya, OLD NEWS! i watched Harry Potter le, wanna give some reviews on it since its my fav show. I had much anticipation for the show after reading the book in detail, expected all the gargantuan effects, bombastic plots and mystical magical stuff, but it didnt meet my expectations in the end. Much of the show were modified and cut short, but its forgivable, taking into account the budget and the show time. I wanted more magic and fantastic stunts, but there was basically the bare minimum, oh well, thumbs up for beauxbatons and drumstrang added much spice into the show which i like, and boos to dumbledore for being such an irritable git, realli miss the old dumbledore, so temperless and kind, encouraging and supportive, calm and composed. Hermoine is going too much into showing emotions which is BAD, her beauty sort of nullify that over-emoitonal effects. Yupz.

OkiE! Before Boo comes back, i would like to extend a warm welcome to him! WELCOME BACK! bet three gruelling weeks in the outback muz have struck some yonkers into u. Wadeva, good to have ya back.

The past few days were realli taxing, i seriously cant believe how much stuff i moved up into an elevated transport of at least 2m tall, objects which may amount to hundreds of kilogrammes... and things like white boards that hafta be tilted at this precise angle and yada yada. Basically its jux tough manual work, not to mention after moving stuffs, we hafta set up stuffs too... not jux easie normal set ups, much more complicated ones. I almost succumbed to the exhaustion overwhelming me, showing signs of emotional stress and nervours crumble, signalling the unwillingness and the reluctance to expend anymore energy to do work. When i got home, i was absolutely drained, dried up of all expendable energy. Even longer hours of sleep cant replenish my over-loaded body. Else, positivity kept me going and gave me the strength to get this entry in.. haha

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*Quick Flash!* Last week was hectic as usual. Work! wat else can it be other than hectic and being busy, its the norm. A Horrenduously important exercise (not literally), is creeping round the corner and preparations are up on my heels. Once this is over, it would prob be a better term ahead.

I am soooooo TempTED!!!! I seriously wanna watch my Harry Potter - Goblet of Fire, but for the sake of *erm-hem* hafta endure and wrench in agony as i try to shun away from pple whom had watched the movie... ARGH!... wadeva... anyway watched the Harry Potter - Chamber of Secrets on TV and erm kinda relieve a bit of agony in me... I am so touched at the end when EVERYONE except the malfoy gang clapped for hagrid and applaued those un-petrified in celebration of everything good that triumphs over evil!

The Holidays are approaching, finances are on tight budget to tide thru this holiday season. I absolutely lurveeee the holidays. Such a festivity, such fun!

Friday... Hmmmz well it was a bunjeeeeeeee jumping experience for me. I totally experienced o a varied spectrum of emotions, from total depression, disconsolate, despondent, woebegone blah blah in the morning to somewhat a little more cheerful, a little more tinge of joy in the afternoon, to in the end normality. Haha, i feel so inpredictable. Wadeva the case, i have finally tide thru the phase and kinda like zhen zhuo qi lai le. In retrospect, i feel justified for all that i felt cos i think its fully alrite for me to get pissed and slowyl evolving into such spectra of emotions. During that period, i kinda like told myself to dispel this negativity and embrace wad happiness can bring, but somehow it was so intense that i was paralysed by it.

My tots ran wild and i cam up with this.

Yourself...

In this world of more than half a dozen of billions of people, its so congested that physically u r never alone. Loneliness occur when people feel spiritually, emotionally and mentally empty, but come to think of it, u can never be alone even in those intangible cases. There is always yourself accompaning you. Have you ever wonder y is there you and yourself? Its obvious that you and yourself are the embodiment of the final you, closely knitted and intertwined. When you are fellin sad, "yourself" will be feelin the exact same thing as u, likewise, when "yourself" is feelin down, you feel the same too. In fact, by feelin sad and down, you are torturing you and yourself, which ultimately inflicts double the agony upon ur final embodiment. Wads the point anyway? On the contrary, happiness and also be doubled when you experience joy, elation and everything plesant. Isnt that better than agony? I was thinkin so in depth abt this matter that i kinda communicated with myself (in you its "yourself"), and came to a compromise of trying to feel less agony and attempt to be happy. So this is a formula for you and yourself. ")

Enuf of philosophies, went to catch jux like heaven with yk and chan, it was the usual romance comedy, which i personally think its cliche, but never boring. Its always the same thing plot, but never, never repetitive. At least i can feel some uniqueness abt the film and i am quite please with it. But can there ever be a movie without evil villians or baddies? or izzit essential for this perpectuating duality to be present in these movies so as to make movies work out? One way or another, i guess that is right. Oh well, i might jux as well think of a story plot w/o that ba...

After the movies, went to this esprit outlet at NP and the merchandise there were going at very reasonable prices... bought a shirt, while chan laments over the fact that he is too skinny for any clothes there to fit him (LOL). Returned home with yk and chen to my house for dinner and watched sky high, courtesy of yk and ck. Again, the usual superhero show which i think its a bit corny.

Yupz... shall end here with a quote by the erm.. Me and myself.

"The joy of one, defines the happiness of both.
The sun shines on one, dictates the growth of both."

Its always hard to start off a blog entry aint it?... haha oh well, anyway last week was basically hols and rests and nuthing else much but lots of free time... weekends were more happening... Went to chan's recommendation - the eski-bar, and it was fabulous... the whole concept of "sub-zero"ness and the realli creative concoction they serve there kinda make them a one of a kind pub. I like the names of the drinks they serve, things like "sleeping polar bear" brings out that artic feel and yupz kinda brings u to a different dimension and vacuums out most of the fan naos u had. There is this sub-zero zone there which apparently is of temperatures below 0 degrees and its realli frosting and freezing haha but i like tt feelin and atmosphere.

Went out on sat for some quaterly shoppin and went to orchard to support friends at the subaru( i think its spelt this way) challenge and gosh i didnt realli expect so many pple to be there participating and supporting, but it was an excellent eye-opener... had dinner at this kublai khan buffet restaurant... wasnt that fantastic but it was normally good ba... yeah...

I muz say that the whole of last week was prob the most enriching week i ever had. Apparently many of life's true agenda came upon me as i uncover the mystics of of my presence or should i say everyone's presence in this green globe.

Life aint no easie-peasie thingy that u can play with. There are motives and goals to set our sights to, and everything happens for a reason and everyone appears for a reason. To attain our goals, some people stoop down to the most dispicable methods, hurting and causing emotional stress to others, while some other people earn their way to the top thru sheer determination and extraordinary strength, which is adored by others. I was enlightened on the fact that there are the selfish, self-interest maniac around that are those stooping to down-right dirty methods, who wouldn't even flinch at the cost of sacrificing other people's erm... EVERYTHING. Back-stabbing, bad-mouthing, things that make u feel terrible will befall on u if u r not careful of whom u mix with. Its the same old cliche "the society is a very complicated network of traps" thingy that is constantly drilled into me, of which i kinda ignore without much attention. However, till recently have i only got to realise the very essence of this cliche and kinda paid more attention to it.
When things don't go smoothly or as plan, or when events happen that pisses u off, endure... for the rainbow after the rain. Keep the positive thinking up and dispel all negativity. For only this will you be able to keep yourself happie and contented, satisfied and enlightened.

All right, on a lighter note, i have been training and training had paid off with results that i am quite contented with. I am esp. happie to see improvements thru my own hardwork. YEAh!
Oh ya... watched wedding planner and i am totally blown away by all the intricate colours complemented beautifully by distinctive contours, all the natural settings that are so beautiful and serene. I love those silverware used for dining and the different themes and costumes and music. It is so perfect, such an ideal professionalism that i aspire to possess. That is a far-away dream that never seem to be able to realise... unless I believe...

It has been a week, walking down memory lane, reminising the past while feeling loads of emotions. Saw my old table filled with notes and assignments and my stationaries laying forlornly all over the place. I so wanna go back to school again. I wouldn't complain of the load of HW there is and no more grumbling of how much i have to do le!!! Pls jux lemme go back to sch and study once again.

Read thru lots of blogs today, while waiting for my student to complete his test. It kinda saddens me and realli made me feel this intrinsic inevitability that the past had passed. It is so real, yet i don't wan it to happen. I love my sch days, and i have this extreme urge to go back to such days where the whole sch does something together. Saw NJC the open house on the bus and the net, and it makes me realli wanna go back and help no matter how tiring it would be. It is so like when i helped paint banners, do performance, and set up places, i do it without any grudges and i kinda enjoy it. Fun and laughter never ceases and satisfaction with extreme gratification follows. I am proud of my sch and ever will and i miss the times in sch studying and rushing abt. HAHA...

Its like now that we dont meet every now and den, which makes me misses u all sooooo much. It ain't like back in sch where we can jux meet up and chit chat, laugh and interact with each other... i love it!

It has been quite some time and i should clean this place up of its stagnancy, jux in case mosquitoes start breeding here. Aha, besides the the lamie-startie, its time to break some ice.

One great WOO-HA i would like to brag is that i actually got to come into contact with RONG-SHAO aka desmond koh aka xu zhen rong, ain't it cool? i kinda like helped him tackle some stuff for him, and i got his email and hp number... aWeSOme! and he made an impression on me of being a super convivial celebrity. There had been a few busy weeks and lots of things to do, but they have passed and now its more of a lot more work to be done. Its starting to be like the real world, where professionals and graduate work for survivial, but it is not that competitive, or shld i say not even the least competitive, but the same concept of survivial applies here nonetheless.

Being Linguistically fluent and having the ability to utilise it well doesn't necessarily mean that i have to do everything. Its the wrong perception of indolent people, who wishes to languorously sit ard all day and "TUANG" (a common army lingo which means slacking). Watever it is, i am glad that i am able to resist the negativities and phase out the critics. I realised i actually have grown in many ways ever since the day i got enlisted. I have learnt to realli give and take, take things that come in your stride, and when things dont happen to you, you cant force it to happen, u jux have to accept and acknowledge, only then will it come great wisdom.Also, when u don't get what other pple possess, dont dwell upon the fact that u dont have, think abt things that u have that others don't. It may be twindling towards self-centeredness, but it is a good counteractive forces towards the metamorphical GREEN. I am an emotional person, feelin tons of fluctuations every now and den... but i have learn to gain more control over it, and this enables me to be more calm and work with sophistication, it also pumps me up with power and strength to meet challenges and guide me as an intuition.

Many things are happening and accepting them is jux difficult, realising i am 19 this yr and 20 next yr isn't an optimistic out view, considering i am approaching an age that is starting with the digit 2. ArgH... time do flY!!!

A great week i muz say... at least i am feeling lethargic and for once i could feel my muscles exercised! haha... went to some warehouse sale and yupz... as expectedly expected... all within the sgporean concept of KIASU... lol

Hmmm... got lotsa things to debate about... but i dunno where to start from...

classics are still classy...

Awesome!.. i am so proud of myself.. YeAh.. i have so looked out of the box and convinced myself to love myself more... do justice to the great ME!... haha

seriously... i kinda like take things on a lighter note... although its on constant reminder... but at least results are showing... positivity is seeping in and bitterness is OUT!

Hmm... kinda into wine tasting and appreciation... sophistication huh... yeah its HIGH-CLASS alrite... gonna go into fine dining and etiquetti... that is so cool..

everything is going on real fine... its cool... taking things realli in my stride... like cool... not getting so edgy and affected... like yeah... taking things as it is... and looking at things from a totally different prospective... things jux seem brighter ye know... haha

sometimes life ain't only me, me and me... its also with him, her, them... everybody around u... its only reasonable to associate and integrate everybody into your own matrix and conjure a set of ruling to set a pace and standard... that is basically LIFE! yeah and i do mean BASICALLY.. haha

Hmm... yest was a wonderful day... went down to the OP warehouse sale which was APPALLING, it was exactly like a pasa malam (night market), it was as if everyone was in consternation, trenching thru the piles of apparels that obviously had gone thru a "battle".

okie... abit late though but yeah... happie burthdae to singapore... its like having this huge celebration with pple that we dont realli know kinda nice though... but i like the songs the extravagance and the "holiday" mood. This could have been a lot better if there is some break-through from the mundane routine of "act 1, act 2 and act 3" could have been more spontaneous or even con-current for a change as a matter of fact. But it is like once in 5 yrs, that it is held in padang and i kinda like the idea of having the celebration brought around singapore into the heartland.

Subsequently, things turned towards a positive side of life... Its like so sudden that my accentuating depressing tots regresses into more positive and enlightening prespects. Given my current situation, i am trying to move towards a vivacious character, giving life a better and brighter meaning.

Guess that emotions are good training devices to build up character and personality. *It is only thru the storm that a navigator can truely find his directions.*

For now, i am taking things easy, helping people whenever i could, lending a helping hand, propagating a more extensive network of people. Hopefully, that will put me in good stead when i enter into the society.

Oh yeah... not to mention the constant build up of sophistication and knowledge thru self-learning, which i recently implemented upon myself to realli make good use of time when i have spare.

And seriously, i realli need my monthly dosage of retail therapy and more reality TV shows... GOSH... cant wait for the next epi of The America's Next Top Model... prob even The Apprentice... hehe... guess i am realli transforming into a TV junkie and i gotta finish my harry potter... anticipation as the story unfolds...

Apparently, i seemed detached from civil society and prob even from humanity. I wonder if i still can relate to people... do the people-to-people thingy. Its still fresh in my memory that i like to help pple all ard me... like helping friends opening up, shring their thots and worries, helping people realise potentials that slumbers within them (think on the surface, cos i am not ghandi nor thereasa). Gosh... i am totally sensitive to even the smallest things... and i realli have this 错败感 that is clinging on to me like some parasite. I have no reason to blame IT but it is still partly due to my wadeva is it that is causing it that caused it... yeah wadeva

Everyday, as i traipsed towards the metallic facade of an intimidating enclosure, i am always overwhelmed by a mixture of emotions. It is always battling within me to determine who is the ultimate victor - the urge to complete my responsibilities and return to my abode, or to really spend quality time within my responsibilities to learn and enjoy the company of friends. As i passed the security check point, flashing my identity card to certify my presence, it would usually lead me on down the meandering path towards my shabby work ground. It is usually a twist of fate and the works of the grandfather clock to determine whether i walk or enjoy the journey in the comfort of the bus.
Upon arrival, its always the cliched regimental regimes and rules to adhere to, which completes a routinal morning schedule bridging towards the start of work. Usually, after a simple ceremonial presence-indicating session, it would be heads back to the office for all of us, where a multitude of work awaits. Everyday, there is a ever-changing course of tasks for everyone to perform, giving their level best to satisfy the minimum criteria to at least secure themselves a safe environment. As for me, its always vacilating between being the good old me, or the baddy me (not criminally, or evil, or sinisterly bad. Just the rather unapproachable me), as work doesn't realli pressurizes me a lot, but rather the inter-personnel agenda that is.

the chronicle continues...

Had some insights on some matters of sophistication and social status... and i would like to highlite a point of enunciation of the word 'A' and not otherwise...

Gosh... i jux came to realise that i am plan stupid... i am totally being hurt incessantly, bleeding profusely and cowering melancholy alone... and who is the perpetrator?... that would be the idiosyncratic... Me! of cos it takes two hands to clap... so yea there is another party... haiz... but i have awoken (i think)... hoping fervently for time to heal my wounds... is there medication to lighten my pain? is there a doctor to treat my condition? is there anyone out there?

Hmm.. nuthing much realli... jux mundane normal life, which is in serious need of spices!! lol... sound as if i dont have a life... but i have a partial one, which is in the process of obliteration... gotta find a source of power strong enuf to pull thru this..

was pondering upon many issues which dawned on me when i was rather free... yeah free... which equals to lots of time to day dream... The balance of this world is actually maintained by this perpectuating duality that exist independently as a counteracting phenomenum.. there is always peopl being happy :) and others being sad :( ... there is the matter of life and death... there is the endless battle betweem good and evil... so many to name... have u ever wondered that when u r actualli enjoying and sharing happiness with someone else... there is another party that i feelin left out and feelin sad?.. when there is a baby born somewhere... there is also a deceased somewhere else... that is the hurtful truth but an inevitable one... wow sounds philosophical but yeah.. its jux me plain rattling away... expressing my view... but it makes sense though... hehe haha... okie dokie... miss u all out there and hope to see ya soonz...

Yeap!!... its a half day today for most of my fellow office-mateys and friends (cos i refuse to regard them as collegues)... while i have to attend my medical appt @ TTSH... so i made my way there at around 12+ stopping by bishan to do some shopping and finally arriving at almost 2... wonderful and i tot the clinic would serve on a first come first serve basis and i cld get everything over and done with ignoring the fact that my appt is at 350pm... however... time seems to literally CRAWL... or even wriggle like some worm without any legs at ALL... i totally waited for like easily 2hrs b4 its my turn to see the doc... like damn it... i have exhausted all ways and means to keep myself occupied and optimistic that i can return to my abode early... but the call for my turn finally at around 4, dashed all hopes. Wats worse was that i was jux plainly flustered that i kept fumbling upon stuffs. The whole situation reached its pinnacle of embarassement when i walked into the room with one resident doc and 2 interns... firstly i was like carrying so much stuff on my hand that i kinda like dragged everything into the room and sprawl them all over the floor... when i wanted to like stack them neatly into one corner... the doc demanded me to sit over to the other side leaving all my stuff laying forlornly on the floor... wats worse is the my whole bag went under the doc's desk and i kinda like groped his legs while i felt for my bag *god! that is juz so embarassing*.. and that 2 interns seem to be enjoying themselves... watching my fumble... YICKS!

It was more or less the same case when i was in the MRT too... cos i mistaken the approaching train to be my train and i kinda rushed down looking terribly misplaced and disposed of all image only to find out that i made a mistake... lucky for me its finally the journey home where i can juz simply throw everything in one corner... yupz *which i literally did*

Baked 2 cheesecakes.. one for friends and the other for family... cooking is still a good way to de-stress even though its hardwork... hehe... did some reading and missed CSI *yucks* but it was for a good cause... as i was watching CHARMED... hehe

anyway recently there has been a great hoo-ha abt the talent search show on TV, leeching off viewers' attention in order to crown the next promising super star... and pple have been commenting greatly on this event and i shld do mine...
Firstly : IT SUX TOTALLY... its juz another gimmick to be one-time famous
Secondly: IT STILL SUCK... the participants there are jux visual prostitutes for viewers to rape
them optically... leaving mangled flesh and tattered image... GRUESOME!!!

Its jux another day... thats all i can lament about... nuthin special or especially exciting.. the only thing i can presumably conclude is that "arrows" around the office are getting much more aggressive...

trying to improve myself with new knowledge and information... think i am realli on into it... prob getting to enroll myself in some class or another...

okie... firstly i muz apologize to the excos... so sorrie.. i had something on that i so last minute... yupz sorrie.. absolutely apologetic!

Watched War of the Worlds already and it was totally awesome... like absolutely great... but it was a bit disappointing at the end... everything was so perfect... the plot, the develoment... it kept me on the edge of my seat (literally)... i grabbed on to everything.. i mean its so in suspense that i was kinda like on tenderhooks... haha but it was a great movie... and spielberg is jux damn awesome... he reflected the selfish aspect of man-kind... the i-would-kill-u-to-save-my-skin kinda philsophy in mankind... the basic need/instinct to survive will supercede all social concerns and the so-called norms which evidently are the dwindling ethics that is left... there was plot and visual effects... so its 4 popcorns out of 5... the deduction was due to the abrupt ending to which how the aliens died and how reunion happened... it was lame so to speak, cos its like thruout the show the aliens were to perfect to be defeated... but in the end they were defeated by the very essence that made us.. its like too sudden... but still it is excellent!!

went to another movie today which was Initial D, i was quite skeptical abt that show at first cos i tot it would be some himbo show flauting all the hot idols that participated in the show... it turned out otherwise... its unlike amercan movies... its style is very asian... but at least it is captivating.. all the cool maneuvers and speed lashing bends... all the action, the danger... it was awesome... definitely nice... however there seem to be some parts that are irrelevant... like some narcissistic freak trying to be farny but turned the effects to be otherwise... and the girl who is supposedly to be jay's gf turned out to be some explicit social escort... its like *diaoz* lamo!!! but at least it is not cliched.. that's a saving grace!

Oh ya... went back to cat high for homecoming... it is totally GREAT!!!.. i mean all the memories and everything rushed back and it was absolutely overwhelmed... somethings changed and definitely a lot of improvements... i loved the sch and will still love it... its my ala mater... and all the students and teachers that i know... my god.. i realli loved that feeling and enjoyed myself there... OVERWHELMED!... like WOW!!! i am so gonna wan to teach there... haha relief teaching... yupz!

Gee... its like a wild morning today with everything running amuck, my hair, my clothes, chicken meat and even emotions... guess i can't handle so much things at a time... or prob i need a distraction from all these diversifications of problems and YUCKS! i hate that...

got ready for some parade for some day... i was quite reluctant to attend but apparently i ahve no choice unless i am on duty which i am not! The parade was quite short with a menagerie of berets displayed under the warm sunlight. It was alrite and we kinda left quite early after that... now i am back in my comfy office with the air-con blasting right at my face... *whew*...

Fingers crossed now... jux hope that i can get a half day off today from my superiors!!!

had a dinner treat from my superior today at sakae... it was more of like a farewell dinner for shaun and moses... and btw... good luck to both of you and take care... will be missin u lots!

went GIANT to grab some BBQ stuff.. den went home...

Hmmm... had realli tot abt a lot of things and juz got saddened by events that happened and passed by along the way... i mean i know that i am easily affected but... i have realli tried for the past week to suppress everything under a peaceful act... i dont feel good...esp after losing another two more gd friend from my office... its juz like sch where we have to part... but leaving is always so hard... now it seems like i am all alone.. its hard...

It was a good time for all of us i think, to sit down and laugh about silly stuff and recount all the outrageous things that happened back in school. i feel sad that that is now a closed chapter of my life, and that this period of time shared with this group of people has been subconsciously relegated to being fragments of the past as i go about mapping out my future. looking ahead, it is sad to think that the path ahead may or may not cross these people's as much as i would like, but i guess i can take comfort in precious memories of the past

Gee.. its early in the morning and i got nothing to do... stayed in for the past two days and it had been quite an experience... i mean its like taking me to the zoo for the first time and let my imagination and fantasy of the place run wild... i had expectations and my prerogative of imagination but some turned out to be boogy while others turned out to be something quite expected... but overall its like a 7 stars out of 10... but i wld think twice b4 staying in again... its like realli troublesome to get food and cumbersome to get all my stuff in... imagine dragging half ur closet to camp.. wonderful? i think not... but some might think of it as some make over of ur own wardrobe *disgusting will it be*...

okie den.. its like wednesday and its charrrrrmed day... its jux so exciting and anticipating to realli get to watch the serial... i am so addicted... anyway shall end my morning yawn here and cya soonz...

To all.. have a good morning and take care..

*Is giving up the little quirks and eccentricities in exchange for normality a good thing? Is it absolutely necessary to lose certain parts of ourselves in order to grow?* think abt it??

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okie... went out with sf sc wk yk chan and boo... walking around jux enjoyin each other's company... people might regard this as something u would do if u hadn't got anything better to do... but i think otherwise... who cares wat other people think...

wat a good "who cares wat other people think" ... its something that i think i have semi-grasped it... was feelin a sense of pure and innocent happiness yesterday... i don't know how or why... but its like true la... i felt it... and it was like i am on wings... floating off the ground... levitating around... that pure essence of joy... INCREDIBLE!!! and i kinda broke away from the cacoon as a happier and a more colourful caterpillar??? yes indeed.. cos i know i haven't fully mature to a dazzling butterfyl... yupz... waiting for the time to arrive... and till den... i still am trying to grow...

PH!!! yes i realli need to get a hair cut... but i am sooo afraid that the barber will screw up my hairstlye and cause mayhem upon my silky top... and maybe tan myself up a bit... chocolate looks nice... hehe... i need the sun!!!


A thing of beauty is a joy forever;
Its loveliness increases; it will never
Pass into nothingness; but still will keep
A bower quie for us, and a sleep
Full of sweet dreams, and health, and quiet breathing.

ok... its lunch time and whew i had a filling lunch so relaxing a bit b4 working hard again... listening to canon in d by VBC (vienna boys choir)... absolutely soothing and serene... Hmmm still contemplating on taking a half day off tmr...

had lunch with boo plus reminiscing our sec sch days... feelin nostalgic... realli loved those days in sch... carefree and i juz miss them and everybody... like i can find so many pple to hang out with and everyone is under one roof... not even modern technology can beat that.

Trying real hard to conform to the resolutions i set.. *fingers crossed* and hope that i wont be regarded as an idiosyncratic numskull... prob wierd but it is worth a try... hmmm... feelin grateful to the com for providing me an avenue to express myself and my tots... ok... shall stop my whining here and for now... looking forward to charmed tonite and meeting up with friends... yupz!!

Ok... another day at work... feels kinda like some office job kinda thingy... office boy... hehe but i like it... i do have some sense of achievement... esp after photocopying like thousands of sheets of documents... hehe

feelin kinda moody today... i realli dont know but somehow, someway... i muz pull myself together... forget about everything... not literally EVERYTHING... as in things that i am clinging too much on... prob i am juz too sensitive... or izzit another phase in my life... the realli obnoxious NS life... its like i am kinda trapped in this cacoon... i know what i should and shouldn't do... i know the right and wrong way of life... but i am juz too confused and blinded by "things" (can't come up with a better substitution for this)... my "rampaging emotions" so-to-speak... haizz... and its hard for me to break away from all these jiggidies and metamorphasize... its kinda wierd that i kept telling myself to clear every unhappiness from myself and stay happy... but i realli get affected BIG TIME by things that happen around me... even nitty grittyies that i percieve as a priority. How dumb... but i made like that so i shall juz have to deal with it... yupz... its realli true though... was talking to ting and yupz... guess she was rite... i am still growing up and i shld take things in my stride , letting it pass by and go... learning lessons on the way.... Matters of the heart realli make or break u... learnt this lesson b4 and done it twice... or in fact a lot of times le... still fallin into the same trap... haiz... WAKE UP LE!!!!

Felt very sorrie for royston too... he got such a realli lousy vocation and posting... i mean although it is not mine or anything.. i could easily sit aside and laugh my head of his agony and shiong-ness... but i couldn't do that to a realli gd friend like him... i mean it is not a rule or some bonds that say i cant do that... but it is from deep down inside me that i realli empathize him and feel his agony and distraugh on his behalf... it is that BAD!.... emotions and hormones running amuck? i dont think so.. it is juz my nature... good luck chan! and hope all goes well for ya...

Whooo... had a realli busy day today at work... had to do up a place for some briefing. It wouldn't be that bad if there are more manpower and resources to go around... but everyone is being spread very thinly and resources are limited... haha sounds geographic... anyway after that met boo and went back together... haha.. its juz nice to have a realli good friend in camp... even though we're a road away... (literally)

oh ya.. and so sorrie to chan, yk, wk, sc, sf... pai seh can't join u all... went bowling and it was terrible... can't find the feel... and i injured myself... LOL... but its ok le... juz blisters...

In anycase... it was an emotional roller coaster for me today... at work and at the bus-stop... it was like tt ... saw 2 visually-handicapped people (it isn't realli appropriate and nice to address them as blin*) supporting each other while they walk towards their destination... den they stopped to ask passer-bys the location of the bus that they needed to take... somehow i realli feel the helplessness of these people... although much attention had been attached to them ( like the metals dots sprawling all over the floor in some orderly fashion and prob some coding?), it is still ungratifying to see helplessness in them... it realli makes me wonder how fortunate i am... but still i am bugged down by so many things... making a comparison btw them and me... i see that their only apparent worry... is that their handicap will hinder their daily routines and prob affect their life... it may seem major but it is a reasonable worry... for me... i would say that i have too many unduly worries that pesters me causing all these emotional "rock and roll"s... farny but true how human never get satisated... prob this wld cause my greatest downfall... oh wait.. i think it had already... haiz... but it doesn't seem to serve as a lesson learnt.. neither is it a history to rmb... alritey den... enuf of lamenting..

Hmmm... went to watch madagascar... cool and cute animated movie... very funny and relaxing... even though i had a splitting headache that day... realli loved the penguins... farny and cute... i think i am gonna get beanies of them... lol..alex is kinda cute too... but i think gloria ain't no gracious hippo... more like a busty bomb that would squeeze the daylights out of u if u ever piss her off... lol... oh ya.. the racoons (supposedly) are realli hilarious... and i realli love 'em...

hmmm become more of a movie junkie recently... but i like it... lol... but shld restrict it to only once a week... of twice la... dun too much if not it would be too taxing on my monetary account... haha... in any case is still very fun to watch movies with friends.. lol... yupz...

and friday... went back to NJ... nice feelin going back... attended interact club's AGM and got to meet fellow excos and seniors and juniors... realli missed them... and it realli felt great... realli great to juz mingle ard with them... thankx guys...

Have been going out these few days... and yupz... had fun of cos... watched star wars and i think it is quite star warsy.... lol... i mean is the normal star war kinda animations and scenario u wld expect and the plot isn't realli there... it is more of like an action-pack movie... yupz... and i think master yoda is so cute... small, cute... but deadly... haha... den after that went to play pool and bowling wit XQ LM aloy and boo... fun fun... den they came me house for contract bridge session which is by demand from LM... but is quite fun la... basically like dat lor... lol

LalaLA... jux wanna post an entry here... anyway me got posted to a new unit le... not quite sure wats going on yet... trying my best to adapt to everything... argh... many things happened and juz dunno wheere to start... ok den... so take care everybodie... and good luck...

wonderful day it is today... met up with the clique and watched The Interpreter... Cool movie and Nicole Kidman is realli COOL... she is very chio for a women her age... and she does have the X-factor that connects her with the audience...

Ok den ... went for dinner and do wat we usually do... sit down and chat and indulge in the company we have... i am juz so lucky to have u guys as my close friends... juz feel realli glad and yupz... thankx to u all!!

ok... a little note... things have been juz fine for me... nuthing fantastic nor out of the blue... nothing that can blast me off my seat as yet...

It seems that everybody have been buzy with their own new-found lives... and i dare say NS has been a test and obstacle for everybody... a test of friendship and relationships... In any case, i don't think i have been faring well in this test... but mabbe this will serve as an alarm to "wake up my idea" ( an NS slang)... haha so yupz... signing off here...

ok... another coveted update here...

juz completed a three week armour vehicle operator course... i muz say it had been an excellent experience learning something that is rather extraordinary to most pple... and the funnie thing is i actually enjoyed the course other than the usual regimental stuff and 'tekaning'

Initially i tot it wld be flooded wif pple of diploma educational stnds to be at the course since they usually have the technical skills and are skilled in practicality... but on the contrary... it is the theoretical pple dominating the course ( The JC peepz)... esp pple from the top 5 jc.. but anyway... i made quite good friends with some pple there... mainly from rj and hc... found that they are realli funnie fellas...

In anycase i think the course is kinda successful and i got quite a lot of nice experience over there...

Anyway watched two movies these weeks... actually one cos i watched the same movie twice... Its the pacifier... haha... I think its rather heart-warming and closer to the heart... and i like this kinda show... haha

ok den... went out with sc sf boo hc yk wd and chan to have lunch and talk talk a bit... den later walked ard... seriously... it think i have some shopping to do... den later, went to meet up with my 34th exco... realli haben seen them for a long time... and i'm gald that they are all well and doing juz fine... haha... took some photos and caught up a bit... den went home le...

Ok.. this might come a bit late... but i POPed le... haha now as a PTE i can keep my hair... lame but the sad life of a NS men can never be lamer... haha

a brief summary of my last week... went to both NUS and NTU open house and decided upon the course i wanna take... den went on a holiday with my family overseas... got my posting to some armour camp in lim chu kang... that is fate and that i have to accept... juz hope that i can pass these two yrs realli smoothly and hope to chong shi myself and not waste any time...

And seriously... trying to maintain contact wif many pple... but time doesn't allow... but rest assure... me will definitely meet up with u guys...

JUDY!!!... u owe me a meal... and when we meet better get meihui ar... debbie ar... stephanie ar... and all the CFPS peepz together...

still got lots of pple i wanna like juz meet up for a meal and plainly talk over with... that will be cool!!!

And to all... take care and rmb FORGET ME NOT!!! haha

Ok... haben been here for a very long time... indeed i have been very busy since NS... now better le... Think NS is realli a good experience... i got to fire a real rifle during my 3 days of range... get to get close to nature... shit and urine in the wild... sleeping under the starry sky and eating combat rations... learning the battle stuff and getting to know pple more... kinda cool but realli tiring... den on the last day did leopard crawl which is ultra tiring...

next was the live grenade throw... Super cool... like once in a lifetime kinda thing and the effect ROX!! the whole ground shaking and the visual effect is totally cool... esp when the grenade doesn't go off and the use C4 to blow it up... the effect is even more cool and WOW!

den it was the chinese new year break le... yeah my fav festival.. and i realli like put a lot of effort in preparing for it and i am realli juz plainly happy to like spend festivals with fam and friends esp when u r in NS now...

Hmm.. actually NS not that bad yet... cos u learn new things and practice stuff u will never get to learn in ur life... and u get to meet pple from all walks of life and of diff bckgrnds and status and character... and u learn to treasure the freedom u have now when u book out...

ok den.. at this point... i would like to wish everyone a very happie new year and hope that it would be a better year and good health and luck to everyone... once again... HAPPIE NEW YEAR

Yeah!.. today is the new year... a brand new year for me to live thru and enjoy... though this yr would be my NS year... I wish that my family will be healthy and earn lots of money... my 'A' level results will be fantastically good and my sis's 'O' level results will be better than mine... and hope my siblings will do well and cope well with their studies... my friends to have a great year ahead... and wishing good health and best wishes to everybody!...

For me?.. i hope that i can get thru NS smoothly w/o much tekening... and yupz
to all out there... HAPPIE NEW YEAR