Saturday, October 08, 2005

Read thru lots of blogs today, while waiting for my student to complete his test. It kinda saddens me and realli made me feel this intrinsic inevitability that the past had passed. It is so real, yet i don't wan it to happen. I love my sch days, and i have this extreme urge to go back to such days where the whole sch does something together. Saw NJC the open house on the bus and the net, and it makes me realli wanna go back and help no matter how tiring it would be. It is so like when i helped paint banners, do performance, and set up places, i do it without any grudges and i kinda enjoy it. Fun and laughter never ceases and satisfaction with extreme gratification follows. I am proud of my sch and ever will and i miss the times in sch studying and rushing abt. HAHA...

Its like now that we dont meet every now and den, which makes me misses u all sooooo much. It ain't like back in sch where we can jux meet up and chit chat, laugh and interact with each other... i love it!

Friday, October 07, 2005

It has been quite some time and i should clean this place up of its stagnancy, jux in case mosquitoes start breeding here. Aha, besides the the lamie-startie, its time to break some ice.

One great WOO-HA i would like to brag is that i actually got to come into contact with RONG-SHAO aka desmond koh aka xu zhen rong, ain't it cool? i kinda like helped him tackle some stuff for him, and i got his email and hp number... aWeSOme! and he made an impression on me of being a super convivial celebrity. There had been a few busy weeks and lots of things to do, but they have passed and now its more of a lot more work to be done. Its starting to be like the real world, where professionals and graduate work for survivial, but it is not that competitive, or shld i say not even the least competitive, but the same concept of survivial applies here nonetheless.

Being Linguistically fluent and having the ability to utilise it well doesn't necessarily mean that i have to do everything. Its the wrong perception of indolent people, who wishes to languorously sit ard all day and "TUANG" (a common army lingo which means slacking). Watever it is, i am glad that i am able to resist the negativities and phase out the critics. I realised i actually have grown in many ways ever since the day i got enlisted. I have learnt to realli give and take, take things that come in your stride, and when things dont happen to you, you cant force it to happen, u jux have to accept and acknowledge, only then will it come great wisdom.Also, when u don't get what other pple possess, dont dwell upon the fact that u dont have, think abt things that u have that others don't. It may be twindling towards self-centeredness, but it is a good counteractive forces towards the metamorphical GREEN. I am an emotional person, feelin tons of fluctuations every now and den... but i have learn to gain more control over it, and this enables me to be more calm and work with sophistication, it also pumps me up with power and strength to meet challenges and guide me as an intuition.

Many things are happening and accepting them is jux difficult, realising i am 19 this yr and 20 next yr isn't an optimistic out view, considering i am approaching an age that is starting with the digit 2. ArgH... time do flY!!!