Things had changed. Spring came and winter gone. It is so the same with life. Every segment, every phase is so much similar, similar in a way that they put people thru instances of feelin ripped apart from the sane environment, and when fantasy is where we can seek console in.
It is true that we people are actually creature-comfort. I dunnoe, might just be me. Its like in a certain new environment, we actually interact and bare our true self to these people in this environment. When the time comes, when the inevitable departure dawns upon us, will we feel the pain of lost, even though there is actually an opportunity of meeting somewhere else. It is more or less like losing something staple around you and you start to lament. This is such a vivid reflection of the saying that we don't treasure what we have, and only to cry over spilt milk when the time comes when you lose it. People that i can realli relate and talk to are leaving me, for a better prospect and i truely wish them all the best, but i cant help feel the pinch of salt over a wound of departure. Its painful, but i can choose to totally ignore the fact that they are leaving and be nonchalant about it, and spare me the pain of the salt over the wound. However, i think its juz me, a mechanism in me that wants to put the pinch of salt over me and feel the pain even though sanity dissuades. Its all in a moment of time, that suddenly, when the number of people around you are getting smaller and all are leaving at the same point, intensifies the pain and the reluctancy of letting them go. Or am i thinking too much?
Slumping into a minor bout of depression, which i think consist of probably only me lamenting and dwelling too much. Why cant i be nonchalant like some others can be, or is it too significant for me to handle? Guess it is a lesson for me to learn, learn to treasure wad i have now and not to regret later in life. yupz. But if i treasure too much, i will grow attached to it and eventually it will still be a hard to let go. Hmmz, paranoid and paradoxical. Enlighten moi pls!
