HaRloW!!! hao jiu bu jian... long time no see... been missing for like wat 2 mnths? haha yaya.. these two months haben been very happening... juz the plain mundane sch life.. but did went out with the CO gang.. haha so fun... mabbe gonna get shu fen they all in.. den more fun... realli lor.. the main thing of joing a CCA is to know more pple there and widen the social circle... if u juz be there for the points.. y not juz simply quit!

went to KTV with them.. went dinner, bowling and really had lots of fun with them... and i become outcast in class liao... haha...

hmm got a really wierd idea of FANNING gwee... haha use fan ren da fa... muz organize the fan ren jiu le bu again! HEHE

A new day has began... one of my new year resolution is erm... of coz to find myself back... seems that this had been the only notion being embedded on my thoughts...tried not to think too much and think too deep into things... that is like my worse weaknes... anyway wasnt feeling too good today... mabbe too tired liaoz... mabbe lots of things happen la... haiz... been like going home late and i didnt wan it... tot cld go home early and rest... haiz... but i am looking forward to Chinese New Year... can rest... argh this is gonna be a hectic year... and prob last of my uniform sch year... haha gonna miss it...

come to think of it... i like to wear uniform... dont need to think wat to wear... juz wear... no need to fan nao... lolz...

watched Ben yue... waaa so nice.. almost the end... i hope their love will kai hua jie guo...realli hope tt you qing ren zhong cheng juan shu...

I have made a pact with myself... i wanna live in my world that is full of colours and in my own world... hmm how nice... :)

bu guan ta ren ru he kan wo... wo jiu shi wo... hui jian chi xing nian huo chu zi wo!...

Today is rather a DOWN day for me. Reached sch late and caused me to miss maths lecture... but nvm at least i didnt miss physics lect...

It was very busy... CO cant make it den have to find anqi and talk to her... den lots of things to do... sianz.. first few days so busy liaoz...

ended at 5 today with me saving reubz from the clutches of u-know-who... haha

Found out that i have lost myself... i longer find anything within me that is of a lighter tone.. this cannot be the case... i muz find myself back no matter wat the cause is... I MUST!
been thru a lot and found that loneliness can actually be a friend... i have always viewed loneliness as an enemy and wanted to stay away from it... but now i have realised that at certain point of times... it can be ur very good companion...

yupz... today is moi bdae... think it would be the most memorable one.. cos it realli marks the age of almost everything legal... and my parents are happie dat i have finally, realli grown up... can be considered adult liaoz...

Happie Burthdae to me... sad that it is juz such a short time to celebrate and rejoice my birth... hehe.. hope this lasts forever... and i hope it does...

anyway back to today... received lots of zhu fu the msges and to all... thankx!!! realli appreciate it... realli touched... hehe... den it was just a normal day... doesnt seem to be anything extraordinary... den at night, me family celebrated me birthday for me at a international buffet restaurant at TPY... wa i eat until i almost puke... until now i am still very damn full... got oysters got sushi got chinese food got salad got ice cream got cakes got puddings got free flow of drinks got satay and certain kind of meat and fish that they will bbq for u and there is tempura and dim sum... wa lots of kinds of food... realli enjoyed myself eating and i bought myself a pants too... my dad paid for it :P...

went home and cut the ice cream cake.. wa damn nice... but bet i will put on lots of weight... sianz... i alreadi beri fat liaoz.. NVM!!! my new year resolution is to get FIT!!! i muz do it...

yupz... *sobz* me burthdae gonna over liaoz... in juz a few hrs... sad... but it is the truth... *sobz* well juz have to anticipate for next yrs one... hope i can celebrate it outside and not in the ARMY!!!! yupz... will work towards the goal.. i wanna celebrate with my friends and family...

Today no CCA... heng.. slept late and woke up den started to do some work... do revision... can u believe it???

OMG... anyway den later went out to Suntec with Joel, george, royston and duck... cos today is duck burthday... so joel and george and royston planned a mini celebration for me and duck...

went to some country restaurant and ate dinner... haha they treat us... den we chatted, luaghed and had lots of fun... haha and george siao liaoz... den after eating, they cut the cake and they gave me britney spears cd... lolz.. (thankx guyz...) haben listen to the cd yet... but shld be quite nice... will listen to it soon...

Later we went carrefour and duck bought a small vodka.. den the five of us shared and laughed all the way from suntec to city link... lolz... walked ard there and shopped for a while... esp stopped at the HMV and realli laughed abt almost everything there... haha... den it was late liaoz... so we went off and went home...

got home... waited till it was 4 jan 2004 at 12:58 i made a wish and i hope it comes true... cos that is my birthday and birth hour...

If your personal colour is blue, you are introspective and purposeful by nature. You hold conservative beliefs and under stressful conditions, prefer to withdraw into gentler surroundings. You seem to have a lot of control over your passions and desires, but are sensitive to the needs and feelings of others, nonetheless. You are a loyal friend and would prefer to lead a sober life.


Your always have goals to achieve and you can do everything to fulfill the dreams of those who loves you.
You have a sketch of an ideal in your mind and you always search for that personality.
Your friends means a lot to you and you can do everything for the sake of your friend, you a normally found to be an emotional personality.
You have a very less control on your patients and due to this sometimes you over react.

went to do CIP on the 22nd... was a carnival and it was fun la... haha esp so much food to eat from...

Den watched the performance by the kids.. so cute..

We were in charge of some toekn exchange counter, where they exchange their tokens for gifts..

18-19 dec

Had christmas cheers in the morning and i had to go down real early to start the booth up coz i have to leave earlier that day to go to JOEL bdae cum hsewarming cum christmas celebration cum gathering "chalet"... so much anticipation esp when joel had moved hse into a bigger and luxurious 4-level terrace hse... (WOW!)... anyway met royston at bishan b4 going to CCK to meet the rest... got there late (sianz, sorrie didnt mean to be late lar), and den they were having lunch and i didnt feel hungry so didnt eat... in the end went to buy 'outrageous' gift for Joel other than the shoe we bought him la... so me royston and duck went to buy the cake as well as the outrageous present (which is a condom) hehe :)... den i went alone to popular to get my gift for the exchange gift while the shop at NTUC to get the food.... The food shopping was very fun... lolz... laughed and laughed..

Den we made our way to his hse and settled down... wow his hse is awesome... 4 level with own garden and a pond... so much fun playing with the fishes... haha.. den the first floor is this big living room and a kitchen equipped with a toilet and a maids room which is converted into a stroe room... den the second floor is the study room and the master bedroom and den the third is two rooms... one for his brother, the other is joel's den the fourth floor is the open-roof garden.. which is actually a open-space which we had our bbq there high up under the sky... so shuangz... hehe...

after settling down, we played ass-hole dd for a while den had BBQ liaoz... his mom prepared lotzs of food for us other than those we bought... den the whole family joined us for the food... laughed and had fun during the BBQ which lasted from 630 all the way to 12.. so shuang... lolz.. played some realli dumb pattern game, cut cake for Joel and had fun with his family... had lots of luaghed... (LOLZ)

Then pack up and wash up... took turn to bath in Joel's very own bathroom fully-equipped with everything, so xian mu lorz... wa... den we had our exchange gift session... lolz... so fun... Duck got the underwear george bought and joel got the milk bottle duck bought... lolz... i got a gift from JC and one from duck... very cute water bottle (thankx peepz)...

Den as usual, played dai de and den went to watch movie which i fell asleep halfway, waking up to see the living room empty.. LOLZ... den found that they went to the study room to watch the movie with the computer... den joel and JC went to sleep, while me george and royston went to the roof top and laid there to look at the awesome sky and scenery.. wao... so cooling and so relaxing... very song... haha...

oso after that went to sleep of cos, after a few rnds of crazy card game with george and royston... LOLZ... slept at 545... and woke up at 10 to find the whole hse empty... we played card game and fed the fishes and then his parents came back with lunch... after lunch played HOTEL and went to the playgrd and later packed up and got ready to go home, cos george got something on... After that, me joel and royston went to orchard to but stuffs for christmas and had fun lor... and the kind lady who gave us the nice packaging for the vouchers...

went home, watched ben yue, sleep!

26... sianz... went to sch to put up the banners for Interact club... lolz... had to like wake up and drag myself there...

Den at night, went to the Interact chalet for EXCOS only... hehe

hmmm first night... it was very fun, although i missed out on the BBQ... got there at abt 845, luckily my dad drove me there.. when i got there saw some seniors like eunice alreadi there... budden she seem like in deep pain.. so i ask abi den she say eunice got MC... haha... anyway when to the place and dumped my stuffs there and went to get ready for the night activities... kangyu went to rent a mahjong table... den stayed with Eunice cos she very painful... den 7 of us went to the seaside and screamed and shouted andluaghed like mad... only HY and WH sit there so en ai... haha... den we were all like teasing them esp abi... haha

Anyway after that we went back and the gurls went to the abi room while the guys stayed in another surprisingly with eunice there too... dotz.. den we played mahjong into the night until abt 3 den all very tired, thus we fell asleep...

the next morning, we woke up early and den started playing again... play mahjong watch TV... didnt even step out of the room... the gurls woke up like at 11!!! while we woke up at 9.. lolz... cos the gurls like sleep at 5 in the mornig cos they chit chatting... wa... haha.. anyway after they woke up, went cycling and went mad speeding ard den got to know each other more lorz...

den ate lunch unknowingly... den had discussion for 2004 action plan...after that.. play again...

25th is Christmas... happie and celebrating... yupz... today got christmas party at my relatives there... went there to have lunch and dinner den had fun with my cousins...

Then received more gifts...
got two sigg water bottle...
got parker pen
got some other kind of pen
got a golden book mark ( damn EX)
and some chocolates
$$$
some ornamental stuffs
keychains

Christmas Eve... was excited abt today... cos can open the gifts that i received

Baked log cakes with my mom... as she taught me how to... actually is quite easy one. mabbe i shld consider being a chef?

anyway later helped my mom prepare for our family annual christmas eve feast... lots of delectable food... wa eat until almost can puke... den had sparkling juice as beverage and agar agar as desert. Den at the strike of twelve, we cut the log-cake... so festive.. realli like this kinda of thing... anyway after that, we proceeded on to collect our presents and opening them...

Hmmm... this year i received:
a photo frame
a small botlle courtesy of david duck (LOLZ)
a cute bear paper weight from JC
a tribal bracelet
a handphone
some suntanning lotions and magnets
organizers

yupz these are from me family

On the 23rd of december my father gave to me... an early present for christmas... so happie on receiving it... one of the best presents... haha... wanted to wait for E700, but nvm it is the thought that count...

Well basically that was it.

Back from chalet... Had fun laughed ard... and yupz.. tried to enjoy!...

I sat for SAT on sat... wat a nice awy to start this off, woke up early in the morning, and my dad drove me to that place, st francis methodist school and i got there like 715? when the reporting time shld be at 8? wateva, went there, found a seat on the stony, classy stairways and waited for reubz to come. Den Jess came and we chatted and saw some aunties taking SAT.. i was like OMG even aunties come compete with us... congrats man.. Haha.. den finally reubz came and the three of us juz went to take a queue and went into the classroom...

wat i muz say is the magnificance of the school, bu kui shi private sch.. haha so well-facilitated... and so juz very nice... den it was the start of SAT... the lady took a long time juz to check the particulars of one classroom of 20 pple? den finally a long mundane list of instructions that juz dont get into my head for goodness sake! i had to ask her so many times that she was like diaoing me... but sorrie lor.. is me first time of coz muz kiasu a bit ritez.. haha.. den proceed on to the test... the maths section was relatively easier than the verbal part which was like OMG... haha doomsday? left a few blanks here and there, being paranoid of getting my marks deducted... haha.. (yawnz..) tired.. shall type tmr.. nitez..

Sianz... totally with the christmas cheers thingy. But still, i went down and crapped ard, exerting energy that equivilant to a almost dead person.. (choy!!!)... Anyway, didnt sell much, coz wasnt in the mood cos tmr is SAT!.. is like so amazing?!?!?

Haha, the wonderful part was to miss two hrs of Fann and my weekly dosage of reality TV, survivor for a wonderful wedding dinner... ain't that great?

The wedding dinner was like a gathering of our cousins and relatives... so fun, having to laugh and smile heartily, fa zi nei xin de xiao... With coincidence, Nick Poon is actually somehow, probably, thru a long line, related to me... cos the groom is me jiu jiu and the bride is his cousin... so qiao... hehe... yar, chatted a lot of the old days, esp he is a debater who rattles non-stop.. heeh so farny.. and yar to NICK.. ( wat lousy photographic skills u have, so juz drop the cam and get on back to talking yeah..) The dinner was delicious and wow... never had i ate so heartily and i was like very happie for me jiu jiu and yupz... jia you on getting me a baby cousin.. haha

Tried to study a bit for SAT, but didnt realli did much, cos too happie and too hip ( cos of drinking 3 glasses of red wine)... haha

Yeah todat beri accomplished... earned 800+ today... hehe haha...

watched wu yian de ai and had new lessons learned from it too.. yupz...

TREASURE WAT U HAVE

Woke up like 7 in the morning and rushed down to Suntec to do some stock-taking for the pple... and i was like beri tired liaoz, den rushed down to TPY...

Did CIP again!! at the Iconnect with Jael, JL, serene, weiwen and K... anyway went there and i was teaching this slower-in-learning student... supposed to be in pri 3 but he cant realli do pri1 stuff... I taught him from 10-12, and coached him, hoped he still remembers. He is frinedly and has lots of things to share, but could only relate to me in chinese, cos his english isnt that good yet. From this boy, he realli made me realise how xing fu i am, having the ability to learn much more easily, and oso dont need to chi ku. Seriously, i shld fan xing fan xing... realli is sheng zai fu zhong bu zhi fu... left me thinking abt treasuring things i have and not losing them, but sometimes, as i reiterate, it is circumstantial and not wat i can control, porbably is oso emotions and hormones??... let things take its due course...

Later went for lunch and came back to slack... Talked to Jael and knew some insights...jia you Jael... anyway, after that, we ate and talked... and den played games with the kids b4 going off, totally drained and beat!!!.. (yawnzz)... den went home and watched BEN YUE... waaaa all the shen xian thingy and stuff juz never fail to fascinate me... awe me... hehe

Den watched Wu Yian De Ai... still so zhen fen ren xing... totally like that show... realli showed bravery and the pride of doctors and nurses.. i salute to u!!! (SALUTE!!!!!!!!)...now got a chong dong to be doctor or something related to bai yi tian shi... haha... Today when xiao yun contracted SARS, and wat fann said realli banged into my heart, and i am realli touched by it... WO MEN MEI YOU FANG QI NI, NI YE BU NENG FANG QI WO MEN!!!
waaaa, morale booster. realli... i muz not fang qi!! even though others fang qi mi!! I muz JIAN QIANG!

missed charmed cos like watched so many times liaoz.. and BENNY is back.. welcome welcome... :)

Oh ya... initially didnt wan to go today for the CIP, cos got K go.. but anyway i went cos i muz commit.. den went there and didnt realli care much... juz normal, didnt go and care abt him... but when he ask something muz answer den answer lor...

No anger, No disappointment, no nothing... izzit realli the end? Totally numb and feelingless... hmm.. pri sch... very luan... but forget it la.. go and think abt it fer wat??

Almost finished Qiong Yao's bk.. so gan ren.. ying wei and ling feng... wa... ai qing is so wei da yet so tong ku... bei gan jiao ji, zi nu wu chang...

WO MEI YOU FANG QI NI, NI YE BU NENG FANG QI WO

First day at chirstmas cheers... wat an eye-opener... sold things to pple.. I esp. love the bears, they are so cute and so sellable. haha, i was like so tempted to buy one myself. Then did some stock-taking and did accounts. (YaWnZzZzZzZzZ..) beri tired but very accomplished...

Was there almost the whole day with reuben.. den lunch with him at some NYDC restaurant. haha the food was nice, the ambience was nice, juz that the portion was too filling, and i wanted to regurgitate (nicer than puke) hehe...

Tired!!

woh!.. Today is a very hectic day. Started the day at 8! went to tanjong pagar with Roy to collect some stuff den went to Suntec to deposit the stuffs...

Den went to Toa Pa Yoh to do CIP at Iconnect.. something like day-care centre kinda thing, got there den we were suppose to paint a beri big back-drop kind of thing for their performance... so the six of us started to do.. den got sianz of it.. so, me, MH and taffy went to play hop-scotch.. haha so fun.. so tong nian fun!.. haha.. den later, went to slack while the children sleep..

Den basically played with the children.. like poison ball.. den they had like so much fun screaming den playing with the ball.. haha... but they were fun-loving and better fun..

I am BEAT!.. i still have tomorrow to go.. JIA YOU!..

the busier i am, the lesser i will think... muz make myself very busy.. try to numb myself

Do homework... and tot abt stuffs... Hwee chatted with me and enlightened me on lots of things last friday after i watched survivor...

Saturday was ok... PIA the whole night juz to get some deco of the Interact booth done, coz they suddenly wan to open the stall today!!!

Oh today was beri fun... My jiu jiu got married.. and i am one of their closer kins.. den went over to his hse and ate like crazy, esp after abt a week of abstaining from this and that.. hehe
Chatted with my aunt, teacher in RGS.. former form teacher of serene... haha.. she was shocked such coincidence happened

Chatted with her, knew more abt JC stuff and uni thingy... had more insights.. and she gave me quite a number of encouragement.. like to have her company.. Den my jiu jiu also take some time off and chatted with us.. haha

den played UNO and computer games.. yada.. yada...yada...

Came home.. watched wu yian de ai.. got some tots from it... treasure wat u had... sent me into whirls of tots... Muz treasure wat we have now... wat a thinking.. although cliche, but it is the most fundamental feeling any careless human will miss out... i lose stuffs juz becoz i didnt treasure them, but sometimes, so much so i wanna treasure them, it is still not within my reach... not that i can control... Circumstantial influence...

Wu yian de ai realli let me see things from many angles, and it is very gan ren.. lots of the characters died... BERI ke lian... realli... i juz get more and more gan dong as each epi pass by.. so beri touching.. getting hooked to it..