It is just so nice to spend a special day with just good friends around. There is this feeling of being blessed and secured, like being among pple you can realli trust and be so comfortable around with.

I'm so glad to be enjoying all these... Thanks gang!

Well its another year, another birthday, another step towards my future life. I do think i've matured and take things from a different prespective. Well... i do hope i've grown for the better... haha

Well, no matter how things go... i hope this year would be a better year for me and no matter wad comes to me, no matter wad obstacle i'm determined to surmount and triumph over any at all... of cos i'd hope it will be smooth sailing...

So happie birthday to me and thanks to all those who wished me and remembered... realli appreciate it...

And thanks to royston, soo chin, shu fen, aloy and wee keong for that realli memorable count down to my birthday... I'm realli touched and for those who wanted to be there but realli can't like Joel, Alvin, George... I'm realli appreciative for ur sms and presence... realli... its the company that matters... thanks for the present and planned day today... realli loved it and thanks to yong kwang for the present too... thanks u all ")

Its always so nice to feel special on this special day...

心动是什么感觉？

是小鹿乱撞？是心花怒放？

是看到喜欢的人会双脚发软，手心脚心都冒冷汗？

是无法把双眼的注意力从她身上拔下吗？还是还是老套的想与他共度一生，和她分享生命的每一天？

我想心动呀，或许是最单纯的付出，即使是偷偷的喜欢，或是无知的喜欢。感觉就好像是最简单的安慰，最普通的问候，都是甜滋滋的。

那是恋爱吗？

2007...

I'm so glad it is over, filled with memories including the loss of a loved one and see-ing many others lose theirs too... i hope 2008 would be one that witness the re-birth of new ones...

Hmmm... Started the year at PHILIPS Electronics as HR temp... helped out in the Biz HR office and made some nice "older" frens... haha. They even gave me the opportunity to participate in an overseas activity with them... realli 感激不尽. Learnt quite a lot in this MNC... learnt the way people work, each and every dept's WOW (way of working), and some business lingo and stuff that they work with, complicated...

Had an overseas trip for my 21st birthday to Korea... loved the place, food, culture and language... nice but the people a bit erm... Arseholish... haha... well i guess i can blog abit abt it soon... but i saw, felt, played with snow for the first time and ski-ied... i love snow.. so beautiful esp snow-capped mountain top and esp at -12 degress... you can enjoy steam boat... OH MY GOD!!!... the hot spring is fantastic too... Korea visit it... i recommend... goodness gracious... its every seconds of fun...

Unhappy stuff do happened... My beloved Grand father left our loving care...
Well... things happened so fast that till now, i still can't quite believe and accept it, but well time has driven fact into me much more than it was then. I think i still need some more time... realli hope 2008 will be alot alot better and thanks to all who were there when i needed comfort most. Thanks.

And to those who had lost someone dear... there are still those who are dear to you around... so treasure them even more...

started university at NUS... joined orientation... love the feeling of being freshies... like so blur that you cannot be blamed kind haha... made lots of frens and knew more pple, which is a good thing... i mean it beats having to attend lectures alone and be helpless when you r in trouble... but still i've got the chap in NUS too... and thanks for those who helped me and advised me on UNI stuff which i am still green to.

Met "hanakimi" and "Frog Prince" that made 2007 another dramatic year... in addition to Lu Guang which is ALL TIME FAVE! Number 1...

As usual i'm shopaholic... but i tried to curb so i think i improved from a "spendaholic shopper" to a shopaholic inclined towards window shopping... hmmm well accts will confirm that... but i hope next year would be a better financial year... Oh... i bought my VAIO which i am using now to type this entry... cool and till now i still love it...

Academic wise i think i'm satisfied which means i need to work harder next sem to improve and i think this is prob a passport for me to engage in more activities that can improve my profile and portfolio... so that leads me to my resolutions for the coming year...

2008!

1) I've seriously cut down on the occasions of being late... and i think i improved tremenduously! but i guess there is more room for improvement
2) Pass driving test
3) Improve or at the very least maintain my CAP
4) try not to spend so much
5) Exercise more
6) Overall... be a better person!

Jia youz Jia youz...

To everyone... Happie New Year and may the coming year bring in bliss, harmony and SMILES ")

I realised that 2006 was inconclusive...

2006 was...

IMF, great experience and definiely a gold star on my resume... haha

Toured Europe in October (Entry to be up soon i guess... its been chucked there since last year)

Went KL with D'euqilco peepz... wonderful shopping trip.

ORD-ed on 10th Dec... and started work at PHILIPS Electronics the very next day

Awaiting UNI.......

What is meant to be is meant to be... what isn't is still obtainable if you truely want it and work for it.

Someday i wish upon a star... wishing for happiness to prolong...

Once you taste the sweetness, there are two routes you can choose. You either continue to taste the sweetness or taste the opposite... what r u going to taste depends entirely on what you realli want... so think abt it...

Its time again to make new year resolutions... so think hard!

Its the time of the year again. The season of sharing and giving.

Its one of my next best holidays of the year. Luckily it coincides with the school holidays, which equates to legitimate shopping conscience... Hah... manifestation of long-borne retail therapy restraineee...

Well, i guess its one of the time of the year where i could see my credit points start soaring and when i would go into this buying frenzy and stuff. Its bad.. but i mean if the person who receives my gift puts a smile on his/her face, Its realli worth it...

I was watching chrsitmas with the kranks on 5... heart-warming and filled with the spirit of christmas... Its was kinda touching and a light show for the holidays.

Mariah brought it home baby with her 1994 christmas album! loved it

失败并不是事情的结尾，而失败并不代表任何能够被判断而且被下定论的终结。


人们常常说到，失败乃成功之母。真的吗？是真的如此吗？仔细想想。。。好像也真的满有道理的嘢。


一个人的生中，如果一切都太过一帆风顺，顺心如意，那么一次的挫败感足以能够将他击垮。第一次的失败往往是最痛苦，最难熬的。回想起我的第一次，还真一蹶不振，好像彗星撞地球般的世界末日感。因为之前一切都那么称心，自己也不会想到自己的狂妄， 会有那么一天，为自己而付出代价。


至此至今，遗憾已是难免的事。所以我告诉自己不能背负着过往的错误，继续沉溺在自责中，而不为还等着被开创的未来奋斗。

但这条路并不是平坦顺势的。当波折一项一项的发生，当不顺利冲淡着已被损伤的心灵，这一切，真的真的很难。甚至还一度怀疑自己生存的意义，自己的能力和自己的价值。还好岁月是个有耐心的老师。它教会我许多人生道理，它也让我心境成熟了不少。

百折不挠之后，是个较坚而不摧，较顶得起挫折的人。我想刚刚遇到的失败已不足为奇，甚至我还能坦然接受，设法做出适当的调整，好让我再进步，而不再畏缩于自己的不足。我想我也应该为我想要的结果努力才对。毕竟该来的总是会来，使该如何面对才是结果的肯定。

所以失败不是路的终点，相反的，它是开启新路的一个转捩点，一个新的十字路口。要能化失落感为力量，化挫败感为原动力，那么小小的失败也有可能演化成过后快乐的成功，而重重的失败也能化为大大的快乐和灿烂的笑容。

加油！

I've prepared this long piece of thingy which i haben got to post... so wadeva!... wanna wish everyone all the best and jia you for exams!!

Just wanna add another colourful chapter in the history of my life. I guess 10 yrs down the road. or actually even just merely 2 months or so, i would realli reminisce the great time i had in the super prestigeous event - IMF/WB Annual Meetings, Singapore 2006.

I still remember the very first time i walked into Suntec Singapore International Convention & Exhibition Centre (SSICEC). Preparations were still underway and things were still on-going. I was there to actually set-up the place for exercise later on. It was just the normal thing just that i have to be in business attire so to speak - comprising of the long sleeved shirt and long pants of cos. Thats just the second week before the actual start of the IMF and i'm almost down at Suntec everyday.

The week prior to the start of IMF was yet another exercise and last minute preparations towards the event. That week, I was stationed in Suntec ever since, and i had to work till quite late. Even though working hours were long and tough, i kinda enjoyed the whole process considering that i'm involved in such a HUGE event and i took pride in the fact that i can play a part. Its like this kinda thing will happen once a life time and it happened to me. All the international lime light is on this event. I mean like this kinda thing dont happen to everyone, so i'm very grateful that i am a part of this history etched not only in my life, but also the history books of many.

Prior to the exercise, like during the last exercise, PM Lee came to visit the set up and everyone was like so serious, but i was like huh? its so fake, we shld just let him see wad we actually do... quite cute and fun haha.

After all the exercises, it was the main event itself. It was quite anticipating, i mean its like an international event! I liked the security part, although it was quite erm un-friendly, but u feel quite protected... haha so nice. The event was quite a success and i realli learnt a lot, attended seminars, got to know more political, financial stuff and how the world works. The internation arena and its ways to policies. Kinda cool although it may be quite hard to understand at certain junctures. I took lots of photos, and during the event at the esplanade, only those with the IMF pass can enter and we can watch forbidden city, when no one else can watch for FREE!!! but its only for like 1 hr, so too bad lor, but we got half price on the tics, if we wanna watch the whole thing. Haha... oh yeah the food was free and it was FAB! all the shan zhen hai weis like scallops and lakso, crabs and stuff like dat... wa heavenly... and its like i took photos with a lot of mei nus... haha so shuang!!! i'm gonna try to put pics in here... hopefully i can! haha

Time realli pass by quite fast, and the whole event yuan man jie shu le... wad i have taken away from it wasnt just experience and lessons learnt (although i did), but its new friendships, new horizons, new encounters and ideas, preceptions, long lost frens and stuff... A LOT A LOT. I'm realli gald to be given this opportunity, i wanna thank everyone and anyone who helped me... haha ") realli realli gratified.

Let me distinctively imprint this milestone into my lifestory... I'm in love with "Green forest, My Home" - lu guang sen lin. Its such a fantastic fairy tale not to be missed. I am totally biased. The story is GREAT! very touching, every episode makes you cry, makes you wan more of the next episode. The development of the story is excellent and it is realli a dream world everyone wans to be part of. It revolves around faith, trust and the xin nian that one hold dear and keep on believing.

yin wei, zhi yao xiang xing, jiu hui kan jian xing fu de lu guang. Just Believe

Actually, i wanted to blog some events some time ago, but the lazy me took over as the dominant trait.

Oh well, i did a lot of shopping, got like so many stuffs which i think was bought in the name of the GSS. The percentages were very alluring and it seems once in a life time thing, which adds to the enticement of purchase. Yeah guess wad? i succumbed to that and burnt a hole in my pocket.

From materialistic needs to nourishments, the standard for both is constantly on the rise, especially the places i seem to be dining in. I'm like so into pasta, Italain, French, Swiss cuisines. Just recently, i actually dines at this spanish restaurant at the Esplanade, Via Mas, gosh, they serve realli good escargo, and the squid-ink rice was magnifique, although it was a little salty. I would give this place 3.5 fork for food, but only a 2.5 for ambience and dining experience, cos its just too dark and there isn't much ambience except for the beautiful sea-view that is like at least 400m away. Yeah... some how my dining experience seem to have heightened to a level of "more expensive food" and not hawker centres and fast food - which is bad since i'm not earning a lot, yet i'm enjoying life till such an extent. As such, i'm gonna try to control myself, especially recently, i dont know y i am eating so so so much. BLEAH

I think i've learnt to better pamper myself and love myself more! yeah thats great for my spiritually, physically and mentally, but not financially. So i muz study hard in uni den i can get higher pay and stuff like dat later on in society. Anyway, was thinking of starting a small business with friends, like a tuitioning agency, since its a market is on the rise. Idea rite? mabbe i can come up with some proposal or something like dat.

Yeah, my very very hectic and busy schedule is almost approaching an end, culminating in lots of experience gained, lessons learnt and higher level of enlightenment. So, basically i've grown stronger and better equipped to protect myself, although i do grumble lots. I muz thank lots of pple for listening to me grumble and bare my heart, if not i would be like a boiling teapot with its opening stuck, gurgling way in attempt to free my "qi"s. Thanks for those hands, hands to remove the stucked part.

I would be moving on to a new environment, new challenges, new stuff everyday. I think i can put everything i've learnt these one yr plus in my office to good use and eventually ORDing peacefully and accomplished. Till now, i dont think i've fully wasted my 2 yrs in NS, i've only wasted a part of it, not learning new stuff, attending classes to further improve myself and stuff like dat, but oh well, at least i took away many valuable experiences that will aid me in my future endeavours.

But i'm the same old me, lazy and procrastinating, I think i've improved. so Voila!

Actually, i wanted to blog some events some time ago, but the lazy me took over as the dominant trait.

Oh well, i did a lot of shopping, got like so many stuffs which i think was bought in the name of the GSS. The percentages were very alluring and it seems once in a life time thing, which adds to the enticement of purchase. Yeah guess wad? i succumbed to that and burnt a hole in my pocket.

From materialistic needs to nourishments, the standard for both is constantly on the rise, especially the places i seem to be dining in. I'm like so into pasta, Italain, French, Swiss cuisines. Just recently, i actually dines at this spanish restaurant at the Esplanade, Via Mas, gosh, they serve realli good escargo, and the squid-ink rice was magnifique, although it was a little salty. I would give this place 3.5 fork for food, but only a 2.5 for ambience and dining experience, cos its just too dark and there isn't much ambience except for the beautiful sea-view that is like at least 400m away. Yeah... some how my dining experience seem to have heightened to a level of "more expensive food" and not hawker centres and fast food - which is bad since i'm not earning a lot, yet i'm enjoying life till such an extent. As such, i'm gonna try to control myself, especially recently, i dont know y i am eating so so so much. BLEAH

I think i've learnt to better pamper myself and love myself more! yeah thats great for my spiritually, physically and mentally, but not financially. So i muz study hard in uni den i can get higher pay and stuff like dat later on in society. Anyway, was thinking of starting a small business with friends, like a tuitioning agency, since its a market is on the rise. Idea rite? mabbe i can come up with some proposal or something like dat.

Yeah, my very very hectic and busy schedule is almost approaching an end, culminating in lots of experience gained, lessons learnt and higher level of enlightenment. So, basically i've grown stronger and better equipped to protect myself, although i do grumble lots. I muz thank lots of pple for listening to me grumble and bare my heart, if not i would be like a boiling teapot with its opening stuck, gurgling way in attempt to free my "qi"s. Thanks for those hands, hands to remove the stucked part.

I would be moving on to a new environment, new challenges, new stuff everyday. I think i can put everything i've learnt these one yr plus in my office to good use and eventually ORDing peacefully and accomplished. Till now, i dont think i've fully wasted my 2 yrs in NS, i've only wasted a part of it, not learning new stuff, attending classes to further improve myself and stuff like dat, but oh well, at least i took away many valuable experiences that will aid me in my future endeavours.

But i'm the same old me, lazy and procrastinating, I think i've improved. so Voila!

Free? nah i dont have the luxury of having free time now. Its gonna be a realli hectic 2 weeks for me, and if i can go thru this, i would be very accomplished. I'm gonna put in my 100% and even more to get this make this two weeks work out well. I will input wadeva my capabilities can afford, and hope piously, pray fervently for these two weeks to pass by very smoothly and safely. Please oh Please.

I've got a little story to tell, and the main characters in this story are Andy, James, Kenny and whyat.

The relationship stands in a way that in the office, Andy and James are of higher status then Whyat while Kenny is sort of the office boy type. Andy is the overall supervisor, while James is the assistant. Whyat is in charge of a small department and deals more directly with his boss. All in all, they belong under a same section.

It all started with Whyat in his superior's office, where he was discussing issues with his boss. It seemed that he had been tasked to do some work and at the same time, he has his own daily task to follow up. In numerical terms, he has a constant (1) + a variable amount of work to do everyday, and its not easy. Not long ago, in aid of his work, Whyat came up with a instructional booklet to give out to his clients to ensure better facilitation of his work. Thus he has to duplicate 600 copies of that and pass it to his clients. Considering the amount of work he has to handle, it is taxing and quite uncalled for to photocopy the 600 copies since there is the office boy to do the work. It is quite natural to ask for help from the office boy to lend a helping hand, so Whyat went over to Kenny and asked for his help in getting the 600 copies ready. However, Kenny came back with the reply that the photocopying machine is out of order and asked for further instructions. Whyat told him that he can walk a mere 5 mins to the next office and request for photocopying to be done. Kenny ignored Whayt's later instructions and rebuted him, asking him to do it himself and he doesnt wish to do it.

Upon hearing that, Whyat felt a surge of unfairness and displeasure, since the fact that Kenny does whatever he was told to do by Andy and James but chooses not to do Whyat's taskings. What is worse is that this is Kenny's second refusal of doing the work Whyat had politely requested, since the first which was at least 30 mins ago. This wasn't the only factor that lead to the breakdown of Whyat's goodie character. Andy and James do have their stuff to do. But whenever they needed extra help, they would get the whole section's effort in helping them, even Whyat would chip in. Whyat had to put aside his stuff and help them out. Sometimes, Whyat even volunteered to help when he sense help is required. However, this wasnt the case for Whyat when he needed help. No one took the initiative to help Whyat out when he most needed them, even though it was very obvious and there wasn't even a need to ask. *Previously, there was once when he realli everybody's help den everyone came over to help him out.* When Andy and James finishes their tasks, they would sit around, chat and relax, totally ignoring the rest of the people, turning a blind eye towards those who obviously require help. Moreover, Andy and James seeked help from Whyat when they applied for leave and r not in office, dumping more stuff on Whyat more than what he is already handling. This factor, which is already sized down *for simplicity sake*, adds to the already boiling molten lava within Whyat. Finally Whyat broke through the point of tolerance and decided to give the silent treatment and cold shoulder to everyone else, giving only his bare minimal help to those who doesn't already deserve it still and only to seek solace in his friends outside his job circle.

Is this what Whyat should do? Wad are your tots after reading this story?

Woohoo... met up with SF, SC, Alvin, Aloy and Royston for dinner @ swensen Northpoint. The dinner was absolutely enjoyable and pure fun not becos the food was good (anyway the food was juz so-so), but the conversations that we had. Marriage, overseas trip and gossips... haha very very fun and we concluded something - I am the Ultimate SmokeScreen OkiE!

Shopped ard and took neoprints! fun fun fun, i luv neo prints cos i look good KekKE. and its 060606 today... to think sc jux realised haha.

Woohooo, jux recovered from a super shoppin spree yesterday at Marina Square.

Met chan at Marina and we sort of recce-ed the place before we proceeded to Raffles City. I wanted to get the tommy hilfiger shirt but there wasnt any more of my size, but it was realli fab. Sauntered around the whole shopping mall before settling down at Cafe Swiss for dinner. It was an excellent restaurant for fine-dining and the ambience was superb. I ordered papet voudoise, which is sausage with creamy potato stew and nice suatee veges, den my desert was summer berries vanilla diplomat with ice mint pariat. The desert is one dish that is beyond words of description. I cannot describe how touched i was when i ate the desert and i was way beyond words. It realli felt like I'm in heaven. I am not exaggerating its realli very out of the world. Seriously. I would recommend this place to anyone who would like to be touched.

Then, we went for the mid-night shopping at Marina Square, and we actually went bonkerssss! Went into every shop having the mentality of getting at least something for the shop and i can tell u that the shoppin trip was one fruitful one, but i definitely burnt a hole in my pocket. Oh well i shall scrimp and save on every occasion i can find. That is to compensate on my un-restricted spree! But i still feel realli happie about it. I realli cant wait for next week's spree... by then it would already be pay-day and $$$ is coming in.

I realli dunnoe wads happening to me. I am like getting touched and gan dong realli easily. Little little things and wad other people might find as wu liao, i find it very very touching and i was deeply affected by it. Maybe i am geeting on the nodes of the emotional spectra again. But at least its not depression!

Knocked off from work, den rushed down to town to get a present for my mum's birthday. Luckily royston was there to send his clothes for dry cleaning, so we met up for dinner at out of the pan. The food was great, maybe because i was hungry, but i liked it there. Together with the awesome food being served there was entertainment from the waiter there too. I could never forget the "do you have suger?".. "YAaA!" in a very mammalian way. LOL!

Anyway i couldnt realli find the exact stuff i want from raffles city and city link, so it was very nice of royston to accompany me down to tangs to get my mum her present, yupz and i think i made a right choice i presume, but anyway, i thinking i am moving faster than my financial ability can support me, buying all sorts of stuff that i tot those earning like at least $2000 a month would buy. Oh well i doesnt realli matter does it? jux dont go overboard.

Royston found out this cafe swiss or something like dat and it was realli posh and looks delicious. I dont mind going there sometime for a classy dinner anyone wanna join us?

Okie... I hereby proclaim that i have finally made a very important decision in my life and I will have to live through this. I have been realli giving this deep thoughs and getting advice from lots of pple, eventually I am sure that this is wad i am going for, so wish me all the best!

The GSS has started. Prices are slashed by numerous percentiles and people are flocking into shops to grab wadeva goods they can lay their hands on (Typical Singaporean). Okie,i have to admit i am one of them, but i dont groping around for sales item, i still maintain a certain level of class and i think people should do the same too, and retain a little dignity in them. Yupz ( no offence)...

YiPee... watched the Da Vinci Code yesterday. Its was fab, they sort of reduced the content of the show, but there weren't much discrepencies as of the book itself, just less details. I was quite impressed by the handling of the films. Magnifique! A visual treat after reading the book, provides and better insight of the book. I thought the last part where they actually revealed the sracophagus of Mary Magdalene was quite a good ending, cos the book just suggested the location of the tomb, but didnt exactly proclaim it. I am quite anticipating the filim for the next book of Dan Brown if there were to be one, intriguing! Oh ya, i love the french element of the book and the amount of ancient history that was being intertwined among the story, very enriching.

Had a shopping expedition instead of a K-session since not much pple can make it, but shopping was still as interesting and fulfilling, keepin in mind the budget we've got and not to overspend. TGSS is coming so all shopaholics out there... get ready your cards and swlaosh away....

Life is jux so erratic, everything seems so fine at one moment, and the next it can just come tumbling down. A bleak near future doesn't necessary mean one, but always put aside a little hope somewhere to welcome the arrival of a miracle. It is all this uncertainties that makes life so unpredictable, and allows unprecedented events to pop by now and then.

I have been going through so much without any glimsp of the future. Its like groping in the dark, taking a step at a time, fearful of a wrong step that would cause me to fall.

However, sometimes i feel on top of situation, i feel confident and in control, but it seems to retreat into the unkown surreptitiously and i am reduced to a newt once again.

I guess this is life. The undisputed fact of life.

Emotions are like the building blocks of every human. Happiness, sadness, worries, jeslousy, disappointment.. and the list just goes on. Don't you find it interesting to be able to feel all these emotions and react to them. Jealousy can go two way... hatred and love. Happiness can go two way... elation and contentment. Control! and use it the right way... make yourself happy... that's the way it should be.